heart broken

sat mornin went to nuh
wif dad mom n erjie
after tat we waited fer dunno hw long fer sis
but she still not done yet
so we went to bugis on our own 1st
but dad seemed abit unhappy
after jie reached, we went shopping
went to buy dad`s clothings first
den jiefu brought dad to sit down, while da rest cont shoppin
girl, peggy n andrew were there too =))
i bought a whole piece err, dunno hw to say
whole piece clothing from m)phosis
i saw a pair of heels there too
very nice
perhaps i`ll get it =))
den never shop finish we went back le
thk dad n jiefu wait until very bu nai fan alr
had dinner at jie`s place
stayed over there

sun had breakfast at botak jones
damn full
den went back hm to slack
ard 4+ we went back
dad n mom back hm
erjie, mi n peggy went bugis again =))
we bought 2dresses n 2tops
i bought sth for baby too
dunno if there`s chance to see him in it =((
was very tired
reached hm, rest awhile den slp
so tired tat i fell aslp
den woke up at 2+ n went to slp again on bed

mornin i missed biomaterials again
sighh
very tired =((
went sch fer lab
den to print our fyp report
waited fer tat damn printer
which took so much of our time
den nvm
we went to eat
den to tutorial
after tat to lib to print sth again
n we waited lyk hell also
finally handed up our report
but still have presentation to worry abt
summore its tis fri
very rushin. hopefully i can finish on time
den back hm n rest
woke up had dinner n watch tv
10pm i acc erjie to xiuping`s hse to scan sth
den back hm n bathe
nw waitin fer hair to dry
wanted to do moi presentation
but too moody to do anything
take care pple =)

i regretted not helpin u to take tat brochure tat day
i really regretted
i noe hw many times i apologise = useless
sighh
i`ve no one to turn to
i`ve no one to speak to
all i can do is juz vent everything here
not fer u to see, but fer mi to pour everything out =((
i feel so sad
y am i always making u so disappointed n angry
am i really always wrong?
i`ve tried to pull us closer tis few days
but it doesnt seem to work
n i noticed u`ve changed also
almost cant recognise u
i said i will try to adapt to wad`s goin on nw
yes i`ll try
but i dunno wad will happen
i feel so much lyk giving up
but i cant bear to
im so xing ku nw
bcoz i dunno wad to do
im afraid wad if i did sth wrong again,
n u leave mi?
u dunno wad to do
i dunno wad to do also
i so feel lyk dying
perhaps i can solve everything
perhaps not
everyday i tried to hold moi tears when i thk of u
i seriously dunno wad can be done alr =((