bugis

nvm. i was juz abt to upload pics here n it started to lag after da 4th pic
=.= nvm den. i shall go elsewhr n upload if gt chance. hehe
was late fer lesson today. hehe
tis mornin very cold
triple e lesson, followed by poprii presentation
supposingly is 3groups present
but onli 1 group prepare
so moi presentation was postponed to 1week lata
yuppiess ^^
after lesson met gen awhile to take moi datasheet
after so long of not seeing her, it feels weird to see her again
but of cse, im happy n contented, even its fer tat lil while
den i headed to nuh to find parents
after which, we went to bugis n met up wif erjie
had our lunch, which by den we were so hungry alr
after lunch we went to buy dad`s bottoms
dad today quite happy. haha
so bought quite alot =D
but coz he`s still feelin tired n numb
we went back after tea break
also coz aunt was here =.=
so went back hm n i took a nap
from 6-7
almost cant wake up. lols
den tv n dinner
went down to walk walk wif erjie
da wind is sooo cooling, or rather cold lar. hehe
den back hm n phoned baby
i dunno wad else to say
hope we`re improving thou =((
den bathed n online
wanted to post pics, but moi internet juz sucks lar
gonna slp soon i guess
everynite so late slp
i will die
tat`s wad i told erjie
hahaha. alright. nitess
*lights off*

suhui & mi. while walkin to station. haha

im loving moi current hair =D lovess <33 align="left">

feelin is weird

i simply dun understand

y izzit of such coincidence

tat both sides always have problems at da same time

sighhs

i can onli conclude one thing

tat is: problems lie wif mi

tat`s da onli thing i can thk of

really, it cant be so qiao tat both of them dislyk mi

or rather, having problems wif mi

i dunno hw to say. its okie den =)

i have to be happy everyday =D

i muz lead a happy life in order to make pple ard mi happy =))

i shall start from today

i`ll make mistakes at times, but pls 4give mi

its not easy to change overnight

=)) lovess <33

i feel loved again

i dunno wad to blog
i went to do moi hair fer 4hrs today =.=
haha. moi hair is dark nw
no more bright bright
hehe. onli moi highlights ba i guess =))
slightly lighter
but i love =D
n we`re okie alr. hehe
wif her =D
im glad
hurhur~
nw onli left him
sighh
tell mi when can we solve our prob???
i`ve tried every means to make tis work
but it doesnt seem gd to u
tell mi wad else shld i do to please u?
i dunno wad more shld i do
bcoz wadeva i do juz seem wrong n never correct
would u mind to tell mi how?

wad shld i name?

hello peeps
yest i did spring cleaning
but onli cleaning da windows
haha. but juz alone tat is very tiring alr
there`s more to come =((
at nite bathed alr watched money not enough 2 wif erjie
haha. den go slp


today biomaterials 1st lesson
den no more le
coz tutorials for biomaterials n triple e one cancelled
=D went to have breakfast cum lunch den to lib to do our assignment
waited fer lizhen to come
den we did until 2+ n back hm =))
reached hm took a nap alr
dunno y. too tired i guess
slept til 1730 den wake up
watch tv den buy dinner back
den tv n slp again
lols. lyk pig
erjie also another one
squeeze in beside mi wif hei hei
den 2piggies + 1devil slpin
hehe. woke up at 10+ n bathed
den nw online. hurhur~

we seem to be drifting further apart
wad happened i dunno
if u choose not to love mi anymore
or to leave mi,
im very disappointed in u
we`ve went thru so much b4
n nw u wanna give mi up juz fer a person?
do u thk its really tat worth it?
our 3yrs of frenship is gonna end juz lyta?
dun push mi ard lyk a trash
if u really thk u dun wan to have any connections wif mi
okie, i respect ur decision
but dun hold mi back
i dun wan us to be leaving n comin back fer each other
lyk i`ve said, if u choose to give up
im onli too disappointed
there`s nth much to say also

awhile u`re so gd to mi
da next moment u`re so cold to mi
i seriously dunno wad u`re thkin
sighh

im so lyk being abandoned by moi 2most beloved =((
moi world is no longer as colourful as b4
da colours are fading gradually towards nowhr
soon it`ll be complete darkness
but im glad i still have moi family to stop moi world from turing black =)
<33s

fyp presentation

yeah, fyp is finally over!!
can relax nw alr
many misunderstandings have occurred during fyp
hopefully its settled =))
presentation was okie thou
1st time i dun feel so nervous =D
tat`s a gd thing
den stayed in da lab from 8-5pm
after which to da concourse fer polymer nite
it was fun thou
hehe. den buffet dinner n back hm
initially da plan was to meet baby hm
coz he was at town wif his frens
but never in da end
kinda expected also
its okie. im tired too
slept earli tat nite

yest went out wif mom
to parkway
i gt moi heels alr =D
very nice
loving it more n more
hehe. edwin drove us there
den he went out wif erjie
had dinner den back hm
reached hm use com den rest awhile
den erjie called n said wanna go hk cafe
so i changed n went down wait fer them
went to upper east coast de
sat there n drink n eat dessert
abt 1+ den back hm
wash up everything den slp

woke up n had lunch
den dad went to cut hair
back hm
dunno wad to do lata
planned to meet baby also
but i thk no more again
sighh. mayb spring cleanin at hm =)
take care peeps
i`ll upload pics again

i dun lyk fu yan
dun say u love mi fer da sake of it
i noe im not important in ur life anymore alr
but pls dun treat mi lyk a toy
i feel so being manipulated by u
u`re juz not lyk u
nw i noe da feelin of loving sum1 more den da person loves u
da feeling totally sucks
i noe i`ve lost da u in da past
its hard to find back who u used to be
i dunno wad to do anymore
bcoz our r/s seems to be fading
its gettin weaker n weaker
sum1 pls kill mi
i rather die to have tis feeling

laopo

yest no lesson
juz went sch let ms ong check our presentation
tue nite i do until 3+ den slp =((
i slept at 4+
woke up at 9 lyta
very tired =((
lucky our presentation onli needs some editting =D
after which went lib to do some editting den go eat
den laopo called mi n asked mi out
after lunch i met her at city hall
we went suntec
poor her
den walked alr we went chinatown
den back to her place
den dinner wif her n her bf at downstairs
they seem so loving =)
if onli us ... sigh
den back to her place n watch tv
den asked her abt some make up thingy
back hm at 10
bathed den packed moi drawers
den online
talked to baby
slept at 4+

today i cant wake up fer mornin prac lor. lols
suhui gave mi 6missed calls
very power. haha. den she called moi hse
woke up bathe den go sch
w/o any meals =((
so hungry lor
go sch bake muffins fer tmr de presentation
den go set up our booth n back hm
i went to meet baby den have dinner at his place
watched tv til 10 den he sent mi back =))
im glad we`re okie nw
mayb not lyk b4, but i`ll try to pull us even closer =)
baby, i hope u lyk those stuffs =)
it may not cost much, i may not be da best gift
but hope u dun mind =) lovess <33
tmr is moi fyp presentation alr
very stress nw
haha. i wanna die alr. so scared also
sigh. juz have to try moi best le =))
take lots care
wish mi luck pple =D
nitess

improvement?

well, went sch in da mornin
coz csw was changed to today
fri was polymer day, so no lesson whole day
b4 tat peter said lesson changed to 4pm
initially was 2.30pm
but i told him i have sth on at 4.30pm =)
sch finished at 1pm today
den i went to eat, wif suhui
after which we went to lib to find bg
he passed mi da ppt slides den we went back alr
reached rest awhile den erjie n i went to kallang leisure park
wanted to take shuttle bus, but we missed it, again
haha. so took bus there
she bought goggles den to watsons n back hm
mom said wanna go back to old hse there
den went there wif her n erjie
bought dinner back
3packets 4pple share
haha. coz i wanted to eat da western at moi hse downstairs
but no one wanna go buy wif mi =((
den they say share
den end up i eat rice wif eggs onli
LOL. suhui was juz tellin mi tat those guys sittin behind mi when i was eatin were eatin rice n egg
den i asked hw to eat lyta??
nw i noe hw. heh
den tv n bathed
goin to cont moi ppt slides
oh well, gdnitess peeps
wish mi luck =)

yes, there`s slight improvement between us
but its not wad i expect
well, better den nth
at least i can feel sth
guess there`s no time fer us to meet
or mayb u dun wanna see mi =(
sighh. all i wish fer nw is tat pls dun ignore mi
girls are to be doted, isnt it?
but i guess its different fer moi case
not tat u dun dote mi, mayb im askin too much from u
im sorry
i shldnt add on to ur burden anymore
i shldnt ask fer more
its enough love alr
yea im lyin again
sigh =(

heart broken

sat mornin went to nuh
wif dad mom n erjie
after tat we waited fer dunno hw long fer sis
but she still not done yet
so we went to bugis on our own 1st
but dad seemed abit unhappy
after jie reached, we went shopping
went to buy dad`s clothings first
den jiefu brought dad to sit down, while da rest cont shoppin
girl, peggy n andrew were there too =))
i bought a whole piece err, dunno hw to say
whole piece clothing from m)phosis
i saw a pair of heels there too
very nice
perhaps i`ll get it =))
den never shop finish we went back le
thk dad n jiefu wait until very bu nai fan alr
had dinner at jie`s place
stayed over there

sun had breakfast at botak jones
damn full
den went back hm to slack
ard 4+ we went back
dad n mom back hm
erjie, mi n peggy went bugis again =))
we bought 2dresses n 2tops
i bought sth for baby too
dunno if there`s chance to see him in it =((
was very tired
reached hm, rest awhile den slp
so tired tat i fell aslp
den woke up at 2+ n went to slp again on bed

mornin i missed biomaterials again
sighh
very tired =((
went sch fer lab
den to print our fyp report
waited fer tat damn printer
which took so much of our time
den nvm
we went to eat
den to tutorial
after tat to lib to print sth again
n we waited lyk hell also
finally handed up our report
but still have presentation to worry abt
summore its tis fri
very rushin. hopefully i can finish on time
den back hm n rest
woke up had dinner n watch tv
10pm i acc erjie to xiuping`s hse to scan sth
den back hm n bathe
nw waitin fer hair to dry
wanted to do moi presentation
but too moody to do anything
take care pple =)

i regretted not helpin u to take tat brochure tat day
i really regretted
i noe hw many times i apologise = useless
sighh
i`ve no one to turn to
i`ve no one to speak to
all i can do is juz vent everything here
not fer u to see, but fer mi to pour everything out =((
i feel so sad
y am i always making u so disappointed n angry
am i really always wrong?
i`ve tried to pull us closer tis few days
but it doesnt seem to work
n i noticed u`ve changed also
almost cant recognise u
i said i will try to adapt to wad`s goin on nw
yes i`ll try
but i dunno wad will happen
i feel so much lyk giving up
but i cant bear to
im so xing ku nw
bcoz i dunno wad to do
im afraid wad if i did sth wrong again,
n u leave mi?
u dunno wad to do
i dunno wad to do also
i so feel lyk dying
perhaps i can solve everything
perhaps not
everyday i tried to hold moi tears when i thk of u
i seriously dunno wad can be done alr =((

1st post in yr 2009

well well well, happy 2009 once again =))
1st of jan was spent purely at hm
coz mi, erjie n xiuping played monopoly until 5 in da mornin. haha
wanted to join them fer breakfast, but im too tired
so i went to slp n woke up at 12-1+
had moi lunch n watch tv
den surf net n went to slp at 5 again
mom woke us up at 7+ to have dinner
den tv til night time

today woke up late
thus never go fer lesson
but still i went back sch to do fyp
was embarrassed on moi way to sch
coz i did sth stupid on da train
lyk again. sigh
startin of 2009 onli n moi 'old habit' started again
nvm abt tat. went sch to do film extrusion
luckily everything went well
finished ard 3+ lyta
went to eat wif suhui
hungry til die le
den back hm
wanted to meet gen fer dinner, but she`s busy doin her fyp
so dun disturb her
supposed to meet baby too, but due to sum misunderstanding
there goes our date =((
oh well, so went hm n watch tv
helped mom to do sth
den ate one 'fan guo' n tv
den eric called n asked mi out fer dinner wif boonseng
they very fast lor
say give mi 10mins to change den they come fetch mi alr
lols. very fast
at 1st i thot they wanna play mi
but lucky its fer real
haha. GANBOONSENG!! so long never see him alr lor
always busy wif gf
haha. nw finally gt chance to meet up
dinner at astons =))
had lots of laughter lar
coz its wif them
they never fail to make mi laugh lor
thou sumtimes im da subject, but still its okie
so long they happy, i also happy =))
so many yrs de frens also
i noe wad they`re lyk
hehe. gd frens, gd buddies =))
went over to parkway
wanna wait fer xj to finish work, but dunno wad time she knock off
so we went back 1st
thanks bs fer sendin mi back =))
reached hm bathed n on phone wif baby
chatted 'alot' of things
cried over many stuffs
sighh
i dunno wad to say alr
shall not say too much here either

i juz wanna say, i love moi family =))
i love moi erjie
coz she`s very nice n gd to mi =))
when i came back from da corridor juz nw
she cared fer mi
i feel so touched
i feel so blessed to have her as moi sis
last time moi mom too
i juz love moi family =D
i love moi baby
i love moi LG
i love moi frens
but i dun love moiself =((

moi happy family =D