random thots

izzit betta tis way?
or shld it remain da way it is?
i dunno
it juz started
i dunno hw useful it`ll be
i hope at least it`ll help
coz i dun see any improvement til nw
i feel so lost right nw
seems tat i have u
but u`re not wif mi
not as in physically
but emotionally
i wish i wish
tell mi wad to do to make things right
da way it used to be
or perhaps never used to be
sighh
im really tired
tired of tryin
tired of givin in
i need more love pls
to make mi feel im not lonesome in tis world
do i really dunno hw to be sum1
i mean to be mi?
i am who i am
i hate to change moiself
but if changin will change moi fate
i dun mind givin it a try
yes its hard
so hard
tat i dun even thot of initiatin it
it seems tat i have everything
but in fact i have nth but moi family
perhaps some frens n love
but tat`s not wad i wan
i wan MORE
i dun wan anything superficial
i need da real thing
ya lyk 4eva im always thkin so much
i dun wan to
but i cant help
we seem near
but actually so far
sighhs