* mango - lovess <33

tiring, stressful life =((

2009-07-19T14:00:00.002+08:00

im back earthlings =D
life has been pretty stressful fer mi ever since i started work
coz there are so many things fer mi to learn
yes lar, its a gd thing to learn new things
but im actually learning things in a super fast pace
coz moi trainer only has 2weeks to teach mi whatever tat she has learned over da past 2 yrs
stress lar
last fri was her last day
im going to handle everything on moi own from mon onwards alr
not sure if im up to it, but will try lor
juz hope kaling n jeffri will guide mi along =)
n da teams too

anyway, last fri we had kfc
they ordered in
they ordered at abt 11+ near 12
end up 2pm den come =="
all of us were sooooo damn hungry by den
den all went to pantry eat
da lab is empty. haha

last sat, went blading wif gen at ecp
despite im so tired alr
if i dun meet her, dunno when is she free alr
coz she`s starting work alr
so, we bladed fer abt 1hr or so den we took a rest at da hawker centre
when we were abt to leave, suddenly very windy
so we headed back
halfway it rained =="
dunno is lucky or suey
haha. but its quite nice to blade in da rain. hehehe
after 2hrs, we went to mac to change n grab some snacks
den we walked to parkway, walk walk over there
bought a top from topshop =D
hehe. went to find nuer awhile
wanted to head back tat time rained heavily again
so took cab back yishun
which is damn ex =="
no choice, no direct bus n its raining
reached yishun eat pizza n kfc ==" haha
den watched pink panther 2 wif gen
she stayed over =D
next morning she left at 10+ lyta
at night i went over to darling`s hse
n stayed over there fer da week, til yest

yest went to his fren`s workplace to get new specs
foc =D
haha. coz long story
but dunno when den can take
after tat had lunch at bugis wif his fren
den went to si ma lu to bai bai
took bus to his grandma`s hse
had dinner alr den back to yishun
damn tired
showered, watched tv, slp

nw im feeling so tired also
goin to take a nap soon
working is really damn tired
im slping so earli every night nw
hehe. after watching fei tian show, i go slp le
if not next day bcome walking zombie le. haha
okie no photos fer da time being
coz im updating at moi sis hse
next time den upload some =))

im thking of changing to shift work
perhaps is due to family also ba
sth happened, n i wanna earn more income fer moi family sake
=((
initial plan was to wait fer love to go onboard den i may consider working shift
but nw mayb will change, or stick to da current one
see 1st lar =))
tat`s all
i`ll be back pple
take care =D

happy + sad

2009-06-26T00:26:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings, im back =D
alright. yest night came back hm to leave some stuffs
den shower alr darling came n fetch mi to his place

tis morning woke up at 7am
went fer interview alone =(
coz moi precious was too tired
okie lar i dun blame him
he muz be busy studying fer his orals
=)) jiayou darling
ohh, anyway, back to da interview
reached da place at exactly 9am
everything went smoothly i hope
da interviewer, madam aw, is quite frenly n nice to talk lar
at least she`s not those serious types de
haha. she still bring mi ard to see da lab =D
den i went back hm
went to slp at 3pm
very tired
3+ da HR called mi alr
said they`re offering mi da job as QA analyst =D
happy happy
den she said will call mi again tmr to confirm da timing on monday
ohh, im starting work on wed le =))
at jurong island. hope everything will be fine. haha
went back to slp n woke up ard 7pm
watched tv n cooked instant noodles
coz no1 ard, all at sis place
they came back ard 9+
den i told them more abt da job
dunno wad to say
no job also hiam, nw gt job also hiam da pay
hello, 1.5k is alr gd enough fer mi
enough fer mi to survive at least
better den everyday sit at hm n shake legs rite?
weird pple. its lyk wadeva i do also wrong lyta
even love also lyk find da pay abit low =((
sighh. as long as there`s pay jiu hao le ma
n 1.5k fer fresh grad is not very low also ma
go everywhr also da same
nvm. wad matters is i dun mind can le =D

*LOVE, if u happen to see tis post of moi,
jiayou fer ur orals okie =))
juz try ur best jiu xing le =D
huggs~

yippee~

2009-06-24T17:22:00.003+08:00

YEAH!! im a happy girl now =D
coz after sending so many resumes,
finally i gt one interview
n its lyk i juz sent yest,
n i gt their sms today
=DDDD
thanks to cs who recommended mi tis job
hopefully everything will be fine =))
wad`s more to be happy abt
is tat moi love is gonna accompanied mi tmr =D
despite his oral on fri
tat`s so sweet of him. hehe
love love many many <3333

but moi poor sis is very ke lian
or rather i thk wilbur is more ke lian
he kept crying non stop fer few hours
no one noes wad`s happening
poor thing
always cry until no voice
but we cant do anything

now i realised,
being parents arent easy
its sth lyk to train ur patience, ur tolerance limit
bcoz da baby tends to get cranky at times
n crying uncontrollably every nw n den
u`ll get very pek cek by his cries n all
n u cannot treat baby in a pek cek manner
coz u pek cek, u unhappy, baby noes
he will cry even louder
haha. its not easy
im wondering,
next time when i`ve bcome a parent
will i be able to manage?
i hope so =)

love and me at The Pump Room

doesnt tis pyjamas look so cute? haha. its abit too loose fer mi, coz its moi sis

2009-06-22T16:31:00.005+08:00

finally i feel lyk blogging. haha
coz im pratically too lazy n no time to do so
actually im lazy to collage da pics. hehe
past week had been staying over at sis place
since wilbur`s 1st month
until yest den come back hm
but i thk im going over again tis week =="
sighh. see 1st
too long never blog, not sure wad to write
darling`s bday is coming, next week
plus our 3rd month =))
wad shld i get fer him?
im so broke nw
til nw im still jobless
same old thing, everyone`s nagging n stuffs
sighh
lyk i`ve said
its NOT tat i DUN WAN to find, but i CANT find!!
very vexed abt tis issue. i hate tis
anyway, back to tat
whr shld we go? wad shld we eat?
next week den decide =))
fer nw, i`ve to go wash da dusty fans, very dirty toilet, n hopefully there`s time fer mi to wii fit
i miss playing moi wii =((
tat`s all fer nw. take care peeps.

taken on tan wei jie`s bday at zouk:

finally moi grad photos, haha:

sick bird

2009-06-05T20:58:00.002+08:00

i feel so sick nw
not onli physically, but mentally
i dun lyk to argue wif moi family
i hate it
y izzit so hard to juz let mi stay fer a nite?
moreover, i`ll be goin over ALONE tmr
bf is gd enough to ask mi over so tat he can acc mi over tmr
but wad did u say?
at 1st u said u scare i spread moi virus to his family
okie nvm den
den u asked mi to help out tmr
its onli juz carrying da stuffs downstairs
wad`s so difficult?
its not as if we`re stayin so high storeys tat need to waste 5mins up n down
making few trips will die meh?
den wad?
tmr help u all take stuffs down den i have to watch u all leave w/o mi?
u dun even bother when im sick
but still ask mi to do tis n tat
wad`s even worse
if u scare i spread da virus to his family,
y arent u worried tat i`ll spread to everyone else tmr?
den might as well i dun attend
gd fer all uh

juz when i thot gen made moi day wif those sweet treats
im facing such thing wif moi mom
how great is tat!!

graduated

2009-06-01T15:55:00.004+08:00

i <33 tis pic, but dun thk darling lyks =((

i thk im having short term memory recently
coz i cant rmb wad took place last week. haha
last mon went out wif gen
b4 meeting her, i went kkh to help sis return her stuff
met gen at city hall
had lunch at swensens
eat until very full
after which go walk walk n digest
haha
had light dinner
coz we were still full from our lunch
went bakerzin fer dinner
coz i wanna try their desserts =D
i thk we ordered da coupe cheesecake
its very nice. yummy
after tat we walked ard again den headed to esplanade n chat chat
chat fer awhile onli den we walked back to station le
=))

tue cant rmb do wad
wed is moi graduation ceremony =))
went to darling`s hse to put moi stuffs 1st
den prepared to go out
went to sch earli coz love needs to collect his stuff
went to find his teacher
den lunch at fc2
haha. very full
walked to fc3 to buy fruit juice n to convention centre
saw sw on da way there
so waited fer him
weather is freaking hot
love went in 1st den saw gen
so stayed outside awhile b4 goin in
yeah, finally i`ve officially gradutated from SP =D
after da ceremony is photos taking
i so feel lyk stripping
coz its SOOOO DAMN HOT!!!!
cannot take it
never took photos wif all classmates
went back after tat wif darling
went to huang weijie`s hse to scan moi transcripts
i walk until leg almost break
reached his place le showered n eat dumpling
den went to bukit timah there fer our late dinner
haha. had prata
finally satisfied moi craving. hehehe
den went back his place to use toilet. HAHAHAHA
n went out again
to gaoyong`s place to watch soccer
i watched until i fell aslp. LOL
too tired. after da match went back hm n slp le
haha. next day went vivo fer movie
b4 tat had out dinner at seah im`s market =))
their carrot cake is loved
den we watch terminator salvation =))
initially i dun understand da story
but finally gt it lata on =))
after movie went bakerzin fer desserts again =D
tis time i tried their coupe blackforest
doesnt taste as gd as da cheesecake de
da cherry sucks
hahaha. den we parted ways at station

fri nite went phuture wif darling n his frens
coz its tan weijie`s bday
never drink til high =((
haha. went fer supper den wen back le

dad`s bday is juz tmr =D
hehe. n erjie will call back either today or tmr
wilbur`s full month is tis sat
n our 2nd month is tis sun
so many happy occasions tis week =D
lovess~

pictures i`ll upload again on next post. lazy to do so nw. hehe
tat`s all peeps. take care =D
huggs~

back again

2009-05-23T00:17:00.003+08:00

i`ve neglected moi blog again
sighh
anyway, juz back from love`s place
supposed to be back yest
but moi poor love sprained his neck/shoulder
so i stayed one more night to take care of him
went to see doc tis morning
he seemed better den yest le =))
tat`s gd
went to west mall after tat
den back his place n rest

da day b4, we went to gym
haha. at night we watched taken b4 slp
show is so so onli i thk

anyway, supposed to go gym again today
but due to love`s injury,
guess have to go next time le
n mi i shall stay at hm n wii fit =))

feeling so stress nw
i guess i really cant take stress
=(( can da jobs come n find mi instead?
its so hard to find a job nw
BORING!!

lyk finally...

2009-05-17T18:06:00.004+08:00

im in da mood of blogging
not very true actually
coz i`ve nth to do nw
or rather dunno wad to do
i wanna wii fit, but shld i do it after dinner or?
nvm. finish dinner den wii fit
tis few weeks been spending time wif darling
which is loved <33
n sth bad (good?) happened when im over at his place last tue
i hit moi left eye, again
luckily tis time round no need any stitches
lost some skin, blue black eye nw
lyk beaten by pple lyta
very ugly
n worse thing is it`ll leave scar
moi face alr so badly disfigured
another new scar coming =="
i thk i can go die alr
at tat pt of time, when i noe it`ll leave a scar
im not afraid or sth
perhaps i noe love is ard wif mi
but when i removed it juz nw
im so afraid to see moiself in da mirror
im so afraid to see da scar on moi eye
im so afraid tat if one day, every1 left mi
sighh. im thking too much, hopefnully
anyway, nvm abt tat

grad day is coming
im getting fatter n uglier
really need to stop eating so much n start exercising
n jobs hunting ...
i wish i can shut moi ears from da word jobs
i really hate it nw when pple are talkin to mi abt jobs
they juz thk tat its so easy to find one
if not, they juz thot every jobs are suitable fer juz any1
or rather interested lar
cant they juz stand in moi shoes n thk?
who wish to lead a no income life?
lyk wad u`ve said, we`re not born wif a silver spoon
yes i agree
but at least respect mi by letting mi find da job tat really interests mi can?
instead of forcing mi to work one tat i dun lyk
its not necessary tat i`ve to work wadeva tat is available nw
geylang has lots of places too
shld i juz go apply one?
fark it!! i dun wanna talk abt tis also
no pt getting angry over tis issue
coz it`ll be lyk everything thingy? sighh

fer nw, i juz pray hard tat moi eye will recover fast
im glad i din hit straight in moi eye
coz i juz love moi eyes so much

i <33 tis

awful truth

2009-04-23T00:00:00.003+08:00

went out wif gen today
btw, i had a very sweet dream tis mornin <33
went to collect our grad attire at near ky`s place
den i had moi late lunch at mac
hungry si le
took bus to town
walked ard n see shoes
wanted to get aldo heels
coz they havin sales
but nth nice, or either tat its too high le
walked over to tangs
nth nice also
went to try lingeries
damn nice n comfy
but one costs near $200
next time when i start workin
i shall own at least one
its damn nice lor
den went over to far east
had fried mars =D
den went mondo
saw tis nice heels
but still considering
so went to adidas
but its too low cut n ex
if wear tube inside den pointless also
so went to wisma charles n keith
but nth nice
so walked back shaw hse
went to isetan see
wanted to get sole lovers one
but nth nice also
all nice ones are open toes de
which i lyk, but cant wear
pointless
so went back far east n get tat mondo one
hopefully it wun leave mi wif any blisters
went back hm after tat
time seems to pass sooo fast
when im wif moi loved ones
i dunno y
sighh
reached hm, feelin a lil hungry
online, bathed n eatin instant cereal
nw emo-ing nw also

am i really such a bad person?
say until lyk i totally dun care abt u lyta
right from da 1st day u noe mi
u shld noe wad kind of person i am by nw
u noe it clearer den anyone else
n y are u expecting things from mi nw?
am i da one who has changed
or izzit u?
i can understand y u lyk n dun lyk mi being attached
but ...
sighh. i really dunno
does it really have to turn out to be so bad?
no matter wad i do,
it`ll ALWAYS be moi fault
be it family, bgr (past r/s) or even frenship
WHYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?
is there really NTH i did is right?
always being blamed fer lyk EVERYTHING??

HELLO!!!

2009-04-19T19:22:00.016+08:00

hello earthlings =D

hahaha. im back to update le =D
requested by moi 4eva-so-hungry darlin

if not she`ll say i dun love her. hahaha
i`ll try to recall wad had happened =D

31st march
sent moi lappy fer repair
wif da company of bh =D
at 1st i thot i can bring back moi lappy after repair
but den have to leave there fer lyk 7days =="
so sad =((
n da very bad bh made fun of mi
even more sad =((((
after tat went back je fer lunch n to imm walk walk
den we settled at lib to chat. haha
wanted to borrow ps i love you
but were on loan
so i took bus back from je to moi place. hahaha
took mi 80mins to reach hm i thk
halfway thru moi bladder almost burst
a hug tat makes moi heart beats fast

1st april
april`s fool day!! =D
n sad to say, i was fooled,
by moi dearest dearie
sad hor =((
we met fer lunch at subway, funan
den went fer our haircut
she cut short her hair
nice lor
unlyk moi =((
thou i looked more childish nw,
still gt pple say i looked mature =(( sad
n i dyed moi hair twice, did treatment twice
but paying onli 1price
hahaha!
coz da 1st colour cannot be seen
moi bleach colour too 'stubborn' alr
so have to dye a darker colour
almost black, but looks betta nw after umpteen times of washing
after haircut alr lyk 6+7 le
went to novena fer dinner at hans b4 meetin her bro at ttsh
coz her dad was admitted to hosp
but luckily nth happened nw
everything`s okie =D
tat`s very gd
stayed over at her place

2nd april
played tennis wif her n sw
very tiring. haha
rested awhile den we had our dinner at nearby hawker centre
n i stayed fer another nite over at her place =))
n i was soooo happy to receive da acer`s msg
sayin tat i can collect moi lappy alr =D

3rd april
cant rmb wad time we woke up
she accompanied mi back to kallang, while i go back to take moi receipt
den went over to meet her again
coz she`s meeting mel fer lunch
but mel was late, so end up i was late too
met bh at je. hehe
he accompanied mi to collect moi lappy =D lovess
when i collected moi lappy, i was so happy can
hehehe. den we went to orchard to meet gen
had our lunch there. so sorry fer da late lunch =((
met gen at tangs, i went to collect moi voucher
den we walked ard
bh left soon to meet his cousins fer dinner
gen n i went to gloria jeans coffee n sit down n chit chat
den we went walk walk again
haha. went to see moi pencil skirt
but saw nth nice

so went back hm

coz she needs to rush to hosp also =))

when i reached hm, i was happy tat i finally have moi lappy to use =D

so i switched on n to moi surprise,

i cant online =="

sad lor. after i transferred stuffs from moi HD to moi lappy i cant online

so i did wad normal pple would do

i restart moi lappy

to moi HORROR, i CANT on moi lappy

arghhhh!!!!

was damn sad lor. keep trying n tryin but cannot =((
i called bh fer help. haha. so sorry n thanks =D

den i decided to bring moi lappy down to acer again tmr, which is a sat

juz den ky called n asked mi fer supper

went to bathe n all

eric n pg alr downstairs

den went to find ky

went chomp chomp to eat

coz gen n i never had dinner earlier on

so was hungry =((

after chomp chomp went ice cube fer desserts

very full. reached hm ard 3 i thk. cant rmb

4th april

met bh at je again, coz he accompanied mi to acer again =D xie xie ni

while waiting fer him, i tried to on moi lappy

den i found out tat i can on =="

but since alr there, so juz went acer to find out wad happened lor

den tat guy asked mi to format moi lappy

sad. have to save all moi stuffs again. haha

luckily its not alot =D

den we headed to queensways SC

he went to see his runnin shoes

walked over to ikea to see moi mirror also

its big lor. haha

moi ying xiang zhong one is small small one

but turns out so big

so never buy
went to anchor pt to sit down, drink n use lappy

den went back queensway SC to buy his shoes

we had our dinner at seah im`s market

had fried kway teow

hehe. den we went vivo n cool down. haha

chit chat quite alot

haha. after tat took bus back

bathed n everything den i head down vivo again

meet up wif sl

went powerhse to get chop

den we waited fer ky outside, coz dunno whr to go. haha

moi virgin visit to st james

chatted alot wif sl also. haha

by da time ky came, alr 12midnite

haha. so went in powerhse

dancefloor damn packed

i dun lyk tat stupid ang moh

after tat we went fer a drink

coz after 1am da drinks are cheaper

den ky`s fren wx came

brought us to dragonfly

to her customer`s side

they open martell one

lucky i trained b4

hahaha! stayed there awhile onli

cam-whored den went back powerhse

dance floor very packed by den

ky n wx went up to da platform

while sl n i remained below

ky left ard 3+ while sl n i left at 4+

i slept at 7+ hahaha

5th april

i dunno i slept til wad time. haha

evening time i went to mr ho`s chalet =D

at pasir ris

went back ard 11+

met bh at hse downstairs

he`s watchin soccer

haha. den pei him watch awhile

initial plan was to go kallang mac

but den he decided to walk geylang. hehe

thanks to him, fer protecting mi

haha. coz da way i wear tat day

looks so much lyk geylang`s hookers =="

walked all da way to lor 20+ to have yong he

oily you tiaos, but its nice =D

den walked back n sat at moi hse downstairs to chat chat =))

bu she de go, haha, but still have to go

sweet sweet =D

6th april

slept late, but woke up earli

to meet moi dearest gen fer ktv session =D

so long never sing alr lor

went klunch at leisure park

after which we went to watch movie

confessions of a shopaholic

nice nice =D hehe
after tat we waited fer da shuttle bus n back to kallang

i went back hm to put moi stuffs

den we went chinatown

i wanna buy pencil skirt

but da staff there sucks

totally turned off by her attitude

went OG to look ard, but nth still

so had dinner at da hawker there

den we headed to vivo

hehe. sorry to make u travel so many places =D

den i finally bought moi pencil skirt there. haha

lovess~

original price: $109.00

there`s a 50% sales, so $54.50

i`ve $30 voucher, hehe, so end up onli $24.50

quite worth it lar =D

nice nice too

after tat we walked ard den back hm le

coz nth much to walk also

7th APRIL 2009

today is loved!!

hehe. coz its OUR special day =DDDDD

our fav numbers made up our special day. hehe

qiao he =DDDD

watched ps i love you

coz he dl-ed fer mi =))

da show is so so onli

i thk im more interested in da book den

hahaha

after which i met up wif lovlies, moi sec sch frens

met xj at aljunied station den took bus down to katong

ky eric n marcus alr there

singing session again. haha

at teo heng

sing until 11 i thk

den we took bus down aljunied n walked over da lor 13

to have ky`s prawn porridge

she`s been craving fer it since dunno when

finally can eat le. haha

not bad thou

i wanted to have egg tarts, but no more =((

sad. den da guys are so bad lar

keep ordering foods tat contained prawns

coz our poor xj cannot eat prawn
hence, she onli has limited food

haha. n da barley incident

really very funny

whr gt barley so viscous de

muz be da uncle`s sperm

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

after supper, eric n marcus sent xj back

coz they takin cab
ky walked hm wif mi

n took cab back =)

overall, its well-spent today =D

coz im being loved =DDDD

8th april

supposed to go zouk wif gen n sw de

but im not feeling very well

so i cancelled

so sorry guys
next time alright =))

i thk its due to 2singing sessions

haha. abit sore throat

so stayed at hm whole day

on phone wif LOVE at nite i thk

haha. coz eva since moi lappy went fer repair, we started to chat on phone

more n more often

duration also longer. hehe

9th april

met gen at novena to take moi resumes

coz i asked her to help mi print

moi poor printer alr no ink

after which she accompanied mi to moi interview place

den she left

interview was okie

goin fer a second one tis sat i thk. haha

sum boring shit =="

waste moi $20. haha

shld have said no tat time. sighh

supposed to meet jie, but she went hm alr

so went to bugis n wait fer love

went over to iluma, da new SC at bugis

went to buy tickets 1st

i saw bs n his gf

hehe. i met him at arcade tat side after i bought moi tix

den chat chat awhile i went over to meet love

had dinner at tis beef shop

haha. da food not bad, but da chicken is way tooo salty le

after dinner we walked over to iluma

on our way up to da cinema,

i saw ky ym n wynn cam-whoring

haha. but never go call them

coz paiseh =D

watched shinjuku incident

also not bad. haha

i thk ky hates mi fer saying these: not bad, hai hao, okie lor

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

after watchin went back to moi place

wanted to walk down geylang

but its damn freaking hot

+ im wearing formal

so end up we went to kallang mac

haha. relax den we walked back hm

chat chat abit den went back

n he took cab back =))

10th april

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY WAN!! =D

supposed to meet ky but its mom`s bday

haha. so went fer breakfast

den lunch time went to leisure park wif jie, jiefu, peggy n andrew

wanted to buy cake, but dun have any

so went back hm after jie had her lunch
suddenly it rained

reached hm rest awhile den i went to nap

haha. very tired

woke up, bathed alr den went to station n buy cake

den we had cake cutting =D

n dinner at parkway`s hans

after dinner walked ard ntuc b4 heading hm

11th april

noon time went to cgh to visit moi big aunty

wif dad n mom

den back hm rest awhile

went to bathe n meet up wif love

his cousin`s bday

so went to celebrate

wif him n his frens

had steamboat at bugis area

den to bugis tcc n chill

cut cake den headed back to his area

went bukit timah to la kopi

haha. met quite a few of his frens

wasnt suppose to meet so many

haha. but juz happened

stayed over his place

coz its late alr

n he need to wake up earli fer his match =))

12th april

cant rmb wad time we woke up

but he never went to his match

hahaha! so had lunch at lot1

n took cab back

coz i wasnt feeling well

back hm, bathed n used lappy

awhile lata i fell aslp

cant rmb much also. hahaha.

13th april

had moi lunch alr den back hm to bathe

went sch to find love <33

also to find lecturers fer jobs

mr ho said will let mi noe again =))

n ms meili cant recognize mi

LOL!! i din change ar, juz moi hairstyle =D

after tat went back to find love

n i watched blood diamond online

watched halfway onli

den lib closing le

so headed to clementi

but nth much there

had botak jones fer dinner

very very full

haha. n went to west coast plaza

nth much to shop except fer da nike outlet

den we chilled at some cafe

haha. until almost closing den we headed back hm

=)) lovess~

14th april

went nuh wif love fer his physiotherapy

while waiting, i went to grab some bite

very hungry, no lunch =((

had mr bean =D

after he finished, we went back sch fer his dinner

den he went back hm =((

i went to meet ky

at city hall

had dinner at sushi tei

den walked ard n went new york new york fer dessert

waffles wif ice cream n fried mars

yummy-licious. hehe

den she came over moi hse

n she`s screaming hungry again =="

fainted!! haha

so she met her frens fer supper at 2+

wanted to play wii, but mom was watchin tv, so cant play

so sorry =))

15th april

went tampines1 wif ky

had dinner at crystal jade n shopped ard

kinda boring. haha

went g2000, saw tis white shirt

quite nice, but still considering

no hurry anyway =))

after tat supper at lor13 again

yea yea, prawn porridge

n i finally gt to eat egg tarts =D

its nice lor. hehe. had 2plates =D

not mi alone of cse

after tat back hm =))

very sinful

so fattening. die alr

i muz wii fit everyday le

16th april

supposed to meet up wif eric they all fer movie

but end up never le

haha. so meet up ky at orchard

she bought so many stuffs tat day

shopped until 8+ den her fren came n fetch her back

shun bian fetch mi back =)) thanks
reached hm eat dinner den went down to meet gen

chatted fer awhile den she left
=))

17th april
had lunch den went to nuh wif dad mom n jie

but i was late
haha. so by da time i reached there alr finish seeing doc

waiting fer da next appt onli

jiefu came n fetch

n he dropped mi at sp to find love =))

went to lib to find him n see him study

haha. left ard 4+ ba

took bus to vivo

had carrot cake at seah im`s market

very very nice

haha. den went vivo n walk walk

coincidently bumped into gen n pat

den love met up wif his fren

i went to find gen n pat also

bought da bday cake n went to tis jap restaurant to wait fer jeenson

we ate until stomach wanna burst le lor. haha

but da food are quite nice =))

after tat went to see watch wad show

saw love =D hehe. actually is purposely go there find him de

hahahaha! bought tix fer fast n furious 4 at 2330

meanwhile we went outside to relax n cut cake

cam-whored

hehe. but time passed quite fast

soon it was 10+

so we went back inside n waited outside da cinema

borrowed jacket from love

n he went back hm =))

while i went to watch moi show

nice show

n da nice jeenson sent gen n mi hm

coz she stayed over at moi place

we slept at 4+ haha

18th april

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEENSON ONG!!

gen n i woke up ard 1 lyta i thk

haha. den went down fer prata

den back hm n use com

awhile lata i went to play moi wii fit =D

getting too fat le. cannot stand it

den sent gen downstairs coz she`s goin out

after wii-fit-ing, went to bathe

den went to meet moi love at cck

took bus down bukit timah fer dinner

den back his place

wanted to cont watchin moi blood diamond

but load damn slow. haha

so never watch

oh i met his parents. haha

den he sent mi back ard 1+

=D muackss~

19th april

doin nth whole day. haha

took a 2hrs nap

woke up at 5+

den changed moi bedsheets

no need to wii fit coz changing bedsheets is equivalent to playing wii fit le

hahaha. after tat online den bathed

met love at hse downstairs =DDDD

went to eat wif him den watch soccer match

lucky im not lyk b4, who used to hate soccer so much

hahaha!! n went back ard 1+

=)) slept ard 3+

20th april

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATRICK TAN!!!

set alarm at 1030

but woke up ard 11+

haha. faster rush to prepare n go out

went fer moi dental appt =((

scare scare

haha. tis time not tat guy dentist le

its another lady

quite nice thou =D

after tat went sch n wait fer love

pei him study. haha

n i juz finished watchin handsome suit part 1

part 2 will watch wif love =D

had kfc fer dinner

wanted to eat subway

but da breads are not ready yet

saw tyy in sch also. haha

he also asked mi to check da SPC

singapore polymer cooperation

dunno wad jobs can i work leh

very sians =((

ohh after dinner went to t14 tat side de study benches

stayed til 10+ den back hm =))

chatted wif love til 1+ den wanted to slp

but gt hooked on fb restaurant city

haha. at 1st i thot wad`s so nice abt tat

coz love was playin

nw i thk i noe le =D haha

den chat wif ky til 3+ den i went to bed

21st april

woke up by mr ho`s call tis mornin

haha. he told mi he found mi another job

he`s seriously a very gd lecturer lor

haha. thanks thanks =D

den went back to slp again

HAHAHA

woke up at 12

den lunch n went shop n save

bought cleo =D

hehe. reached hm shit den on com

play restaurant city again. haha

den read mag

til love called den went to chat wif him online

he juz went to study

n im gonna tidy moi room n wii fit after tis blog post

haha. gettin fatter n fatter

been eatin n eatin non stop

n im still craving fer egg tarts after tat visit wif ky

OMG!!! =((

slpy

2009-03-30T18:54:00.004+08:00

feelin kinda slpy tis few days

even thou i had many hrs of slp

haha. boring =((

everyday stay at hm n rot

yest nite met up wif bh fer kopi

haha. den chatted wif him til 2+

mom said we kou shui duo guo cha

hahahaha

erjie called also =D

she`s enjoying life lor

she said nth to do onboard

have to find things to do. haha

very gd life man

today rot at hm

coz of moi menses

im lazy to go out

tmr going to send moi lappy fer repair le

hopefully i can take back on da same day

hehe. if not really will decompose one lor =((

wed goin to cut hair le =DDD

lyk finally

i really cant stand moi hair

haha. n i so wanna go clubbing

if not fer moi 'redness' =="

sighh. redness = decomposition

luckily it onli lasted fer few days

hahahahaha =D

tis pic is lyk so long alr, haha. but who cares. i LOVE tis =D
im still having long hair tat time which i miss so much nw lor =((
+ da colour i also lyk =D

secrets

2009-03-29T19:35:00.005+08:00

secrets shld juz remain untold, isnt it?
suddenly i felt im so stupid to tell pple moi secret/s
sighh. its true tat u cant trust anyone i guess
not even da person closest to u
not tat they`ll let it out
but ... nvm i dunno hw to say
ohh well, from nw on
i`ll keep every single secret of moi shut!!
not to be revealed to ANYONE!!

anyway, yest headed over to moi cousin`s hse at ard 11+
saw da bride. pretty pretty
hehe. den da groom asked y i never say him handsome. HAHAHA
so cute lar he
after da tea ceremony is lunch buffet
n back hm to rest
den i noe da postman was here earlier
moi vs package!!!
=(( i juz missed it
luckily peggy can help mi collect. hahaha
evening time prepare alr den jie came n fetch us to da restaurant
no gd one man. haha. but couple happy can le lor
eat until very full
den back hm
slept at 4+
coz i cant get to slp
when im so tired
y? coz i`ve been thkin alot, ALOT
n i heard sth unpleasant
n i saw sth im not supposed to see
sighh
thk alr also no use. still lyta
nth`s gonna change
dun waste moi time n thk

today had lunch alr den back hm
rest awhile den went to bathe n wait fer peggy to come
we went over to moi 5th aunt`s hse together
1hr journey. slept thru da journey. hehe
when we juz alighted from da bus, it started to rain damn heavily
luckily there`s shelter to her hse
haha. so stayed there til 5+ den had dinner at da coffee shop there
den took bus back
juz reached not long onli
hopefully i can get to slp tonight =))

shld i cut short moi hair, or keep it long?
not as in cut short, but to remain tis kind of length =((
asked few pple n they said remain lyta
but i miss moi long hair =((

look at moi fierce-looking mommy

lowwwwwwwwwwww

2009-03-28T17:26:00.004+08:00

yes, i find it weird after tat
y? coz of wad i said? coz of wad u dunno?
i guess i`ve really fallen fer u
i noe it may seem abit too fast
but sigh, i dunno
everything shld stop nw
to prevent mi from falling deeper

fri 27th mar

2009-03-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

juz nw i met eric at parkway to get yc`s present
after much consideration, we decided to get him ck perfume
its quite nice actually =))
but i still LOVE da hugo boss one on guys
preferably da one tat i <33 *blush*
anyway, its fun goin out wif him lar
there`s always laughter
haha. coz he`s an idiotic guy
muahahahaha~
den headed back hm
so hungry lor =((
mom never cook
so she cooked mi instant noodle
eat halfway quite full le
but if dun eat finish at nite will hungry
so finish everything
den online
9+ lyta wanna take an hr nap
but juz when i started slpin, moi phone rang
few times
den 1hr is up lyta
so no need slp le
went to bathe
nw really goin to slp le
coz no one is online to talk to mi
nor is there anything to do online
so might as well slp
since i need to wake up earli tmr
to moi cousin`s hse
she`s gettin married tmr
so yeah ^^
nitenite peeps~

wad if i really ... u
shld i juz ... u
or shld i ... u
=(( im confused
coz im scared

so into ...

2009-03-27T13:45:00.002+08:00

met up wif bh yest fer lunch at city hall
went to da food court to eat
cheat moi money one, no gd
one plate of omelette rice coz mi $7.50 =="
after which we went walk walk
den walk to ms n walk back rc
sat down to drink n talk
den we walk ard again
n sat down again. haha
til 8+ den we took bus over to chinatown fer dinner
da minced meat noodle is nice, but too spicy alr
den went talk talk again til 10 lyta den we went hm
thou it seems weird, but ... nvm =)

supposed to go buy yc`s present wif eric today
but dun thk goin alr
mayb i`ll be goin down parkway to get moi stuffs from xj n dp? heh
tat`s all fer nw =)

can i say im so damn fortunate to u have u wif mi during tis 3yrs?
sum1 who can understand mi almost perfectly w/o mi sayin anything
u noe who u are =)

recently im so into tis song, it's real - olivia ong
da song may sound abit weird when u 1st heard it
but it get nicer when u listen long =))
da lyrics are damn sweet can. i love

lying down, underneath the stars
thinking about the way you looked into my eyes and told me how you feel
i don`t know if my heart and mind are singing the same tune
need to know coz within me is a mix of fear, a little thrill

can`t believe what i feel is real
feelings that`s hard to conceal
i would hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore

*you and i
i never thought i`d fall for you
the best thing underneath the twinkling stars
my heart desires to be close to you
so you can take my hand and embrace me now
minimizing all my fears and i know
that all my doubts will disappear
there's nothing to conceal
it`s real

and i tried, i can`t seem to get myself to think of anything but you
i keep falling deeper but it gets sweeter too
everything, every single thing about you touches my heart in a way
i have never felt like this before, it's real

can`t believe what i feel is real
feelings that`s hard to conceal
i would hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore

repeat *

can`t believe what i feel is real
feelings that`s hard to conceal
i would hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore

repeat *

long entry =D

2009-03-25T23:45:00.007+08:00

too many days never update alr. haha
i shall cut short n start from last wed =))
mornin went to OG sales wif erjie
wah seh da queue is horrible i tell u
go in need to queue, go cashier also queue =="
irritating. den gen came n we went to had lunch together
walked to ps n settled at cafe cartel
den took bus hm
damn tired. fell aslp on bus
but sum idiotic children are so noisy
i feel lyk giving them one tight slap
end up never rest well
den reached hm alr =="
wanted to rest, but tv is too tempting
den 4get it lar
almost time went to bathe den prepare
went down meet pat den took cab down zouk
long queue man
went to queue den bh reached n finished queuein his citibank one alr =="
haha. den got chop alr went to eat
onli gen n i haven eat =="
ate prata, but no plain one. weird
they dun sell on wed, fri n sat. haha
so rubbish
anyway, phuture all da way til closing
din drink alot, so never get high
haha. after club went over to river valley fer supper
onli bh eat. haha
after tat took cab hm wif gen n pat
they came over moi place
pat played wii
den i slept at 7+ in da mornin
damn tired
slept in da living room, wif them still playin
haha. i dunno wad time they slept
but when i woke up i saw them slpin in da living room wif mi
haha. sorry guys

thur afternoon went to play badminton wif erjie`s fren
erjie, gen, pat n mi
her fren damn pro
play wif him will die
haha. after tat pat went back, den da 4 of us went to maxwell market to eat
da fried kway teow VERY nice
hehe. yummy yummy
after tat went to buy some toiletries den back hm
super tired

fri afternoon met bh at vivo fer lunch
den erjie came awhile n left
den we went walk walk n watched movie, DMC
damn hilarious. haha
after tat marcus called n asked mi down dblo
den we had dinner n back hm prepare lor
i was so late lar. haha. sorry guys
so i took cab down
had sum light drinks den went over to da dance floor area
dunno wad they ordered there also
haha. juz drink can le. played 5 10
i keep losing =((
den i helped marcus to drink his tequila shot
coz he drank too much alr, n i lyk drink nth lyta
den went over to da dance floor
after i came back from toilet, i suffered 2falls =="
very idiotic. im not drunk
juz too many platforms there
which is lyk SOOOO irritating =="
their welcome gift fer mi =="
club until closing which is 3am =="
so earli uh. boring
den discussin whr to go but headed back hm instead
haha. zurong drive so he sent mi back lor =)) thanks

den sat went over to career fair
gt tis era guy came to talk to mi n erjie
wow, he damn charming lor
haha. too bad he`s married. hahaha
den walked ard to get her stuffs n back hm
n da joke of da yr happened on tat day too
we went over to esplanade to wait fer bus
coz it was raining den
so we waited n waited
fer very very long. other buses came lyk dunno hw many times alr
we still waited, from standing to sitting down
den we joked ard sayin da bus onli operates at nite or sth
so i turned moi head ard to see da directory one
n guess wad i saw?
da bus is not even operated on weekdays n sat ==""""""""
lyk WTH!!!!!
den no choice, LL lor. walked to station n took train back
if we chose tat, we`ll be hm by den le. sighh
back hm had dinner coz damnnn hungry
at nite bh came to take notes from erjie
den went downstairs to had supper
but din eat. too full
after tat he came up to play wii
haha. he`s a gd guy lor
he`s alr very tired, but still entertain us fer so damn long
he went back near 5am leh
hahaha. we`re lyk so bad lor
but thanks anyway =D

sun had lunch over at werner`s oven, german restaurant
advance celebration of mom`s bday n perhaps farewell fer erjie? =((
eat until damn full
we onli ordered 2 platter fer 4 den end up so full
den back hm n played wii =DDD
den many pple left
so dinner at downstairs coffee shop
full full also, so never ate much
den went back n prepare den off to da airport
bh came n fetch erjie n mi
den mom, dad, peggy n andrew took cab there
coz can claim. haha
go there awhile, drink abit of coffee den erjie went in alr =(((
sad lor. im alone again =(( *sobss*
have to wait fer another 4-5months b4 i can see her again
hopefully she can make it fer moi 21st bday =((
bh offered to send us back, but nvm lar. he stayed too far le. hehe
thanks ^^
took train back hm

mon never go out
stayed at hm
ohh, have
went to kkh to visit moi auntie
she juz finished op =))
den saw siang`s gf. hohoho
had dinner there den back hm

tue met bh fer lunch at bugis
den walk walk, sit down drink n talk talk
til dinner time he meeting his fren
den i went back hm n had dinner
pei mom to ntuc n i bought milk milk =DDDD
back hm play wii fit
poor bh no voice. haha
so many pple sick
dunno y

today meet dearie at orchard
went walk walk den sit down talk talk
den went walk walk again
saw a dress from zara very nice
so buy. haha
den went to ax, wanna try luck n see whether have tat Moto Rhinestone Top
to moi surprise, i saw it at near da entrance there
WAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!!
im happy til wanna die alr can
den go try try try
all 3colours also try
juz tat no blue colour tat i saw online
haha. M size fer black OUT OF STOCK IN ALL OUTLETS!!!
da red is too striking, den white i dun wan coz i ordered sth similar at VS alr
so left black
den i try da S size, ehh, i can wear leh
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
jiu shi zhe yang le!!
i love tis too much to not to buy
haha. price is quite steep fer a top
but i LOVE!!!
=D den dinner at taka
after dinner walked over to heeren n bought some earrings
den back hm =D
bathed n online
so long never update le. juz feel lyk updating suddenly =D
anyway, moi frens are recovering i guess =D
tat`s very gd. recover fast fast uh =))
huggs~

pat, gen, mi, bh

pretty top wif moi ugly face. haha

quiz

2009-03-17T15:54:00.003+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

i thk tis test is quite accurate. haha

well well, so many things to update,

but im simply too lazy

everyday stayin at hm n doin nth =="

sians lor. haha

i also lazy to update moi trip to genting. haha

but overall very fun n sexciting

coz im wif love <33

okie lar. feelin lazy alr

haha

I WANNA GO CLUBBING!!!!

sexcited

2009-03-07T22:42:00.003+08:00

i haven been updating fer so many days

haha. hmm, whr shld i start??

anyway, been goin out tis few days. hehe

i miss tis feeling. hahahahaha

well, life has been great fer mi =D

great company n lots of fun n laughter

juz went to zouk on wed

ladies night, but quota exceed

so have to pay =="

so rubbish. anyway, had fun tat night

juz nw never club enough

haha. jeenson half way very high

so we went out n rest fer almost 2hrs

went back in at 2am

n club until closing

den sat down fer an hr b4 headin hm

thur evenin went to da photoshoot wif erjie

haha. she gt cheated again

LOL! spent ard 4hrs there

very tiring

fri went to see doc

im so seriously ill =((

sighh

after tat went to ps wif gen

to buy yf`s present

den we caught da movie, hes just not that into you

lyk finally

haha. nice movie =))

den went out wif erjie they all until evenin

todae went out again ard late noon

had dinner at v8 cafe

den back hm

too lazy to update

haha. tat`s all

tmr is yf`s bday celebration

after tat on mon im goin genting wif love alr

so sexciting. cant wait

hehe. wait til i come back den i`ll update again =D

take care peeps

im so into u

dunno y, but u`ve been appearing in moi head fer countless times

haha. i noe its not possible, but da thot of u puts a smile across moi face

omg, im blushin nw. haha *shy*

NO MORE!!!

2009-03-01T21:27:00.005+08:00

yeah, 1st of all, I`VE FINISHED MOI FINAL YR EXAMS!!!
yeah yeah yeah!!! im super happy can
hehehehehe
after da paper on fri, i went to vivo to meet dearie
wanted to watch he`s juz not tat into u
but da tix are selling fast =="
so we caught marley & mi
its a very nice show
i teared while watchin =((
coz its very very sad
after watchin we went to eat moi all-time-fav
haha. carl`s jr
we sat outside n eat
den we talked
n lyk i finally noe wad are YOU thkin
how do YOU thk abt mi
thanks ar. perhaps to u, `its da thots tat counts` doesnt apply to u
at least when i bought those stuffs, moi heart is there, da thot is there
nw tat i noe u NEVER appreciate or lyk da stuffs i bought
i felt so disappointed being cheated by u
u always thot tat u`re SOOOOOO great, lyk ALWAYS
nvm. i also dun wanna comment so much
since its OVER
anyway, after tat, gen stayed over at moi place

on sat, we went out wif moi sis
to some place
n stayed there fer nearly 4hrs =="
den back hm fer dinner
n we ordered da VS stuffs alr =D
so excited. haha
den played wii awhile n send her to station
slept at 5+ =="

today i met gen n we went to book our trip
den it was pouring, so took cab down to suntec
den we walked ard over there n ms n rc
i saw alot of tempting stuffs
i couldnt resist
but still i manage to control moiself n never buy anything =D
no matter hw much i love, i thk its betta to save. hehe
but tat mng i may be getting it
depends if moi dad willing to sponsor mi fer moi trip anot. hehehe
n back hm
wanted to return laopo her skirt, den she came to find mi
after i ate moi dinner, i accompanied her to paya lebar to get her stationeries
den talk talk awhile n back hm
nw i juz reached hm =D
very tired
mayb slpin earli tonight
haha (lyk real)
tmr gonna go out again
to get yf`s present
alright. nitess pple
any1 has job lobangs pls let mi noe. thanks =D

i seem to find back da old mi
or rather, who i am previously
i no longer feel so pressurised
at least im happy =))
things will get betta yea =D
if no one appreciates mi, i shall appreciate moiself =))
from nw, i muz LIVE MOI LIFE TO DA FULLEST!!!

1 last one

2009-02-25T22:02:00.002+08:00

i cant slp yest nite
tossin n turnin
i thk i finally fell aslp ard 4+
woke up at 9+ today
went to bathe
had breakfast n went to sch wif erjie
reached sch alr 1230
which is lyk so late
so faster revise abit
den go exam
hopefully can pass. haha
back hm after sch
watched tv n facebooking
gonna start studyin moi next n last killer paper le
coatings. i dunno whether it`ll be lyk poprii anot
haha. alright. take care peeps =)

2009-02-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!
YIWEN IS NOT MY NAME!!!
YIWEN IS NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT MY FARKING NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GET TIS CLEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARE U TRYIN TO PROVOKE MI BY CALLIN MI YIWEN????
OR HAVE U FORGOTTEN ABT MY NAME?????????????

vday

2009-02-24T17:10:00.007+08:00

update alil on vday =))

vday was spent wif fq

he came n fetch mi to east coast park

had dinner at tis place, which i dunno da name

heh. its quite far down da park

his fren, dexter was workin there

food was quite okie =))

nice ambience too

after tat we shifted outside when his fren, terence n gf came

its nice coz u can see da sky, da stars =D

sat there fer quite sum time

den headed to vivo to watch movie

underworld: rise of the lycans

initially i had no interest in tis show

coz im not into tis kinda shows

but afterall, it seems quite nice =D

headed back hm after tat =)

oh yea, fq gave mi a 'bouquet' of bears

haha. 3bears =))

very nice. thanks

n yea, tat`s hw i spent moi vday =))

gen gave mi presents too

a mi2u bear, which is sooo cute n lovely

n da xoxo thingy. haha

thanks too babe

da xoxo thingy =D

fq n mi

he hardly smile when takin pics

tis is da sort-of appetizer. heh

fq`s main course

moi =)

our desert

after juz nw, i realized tat its time to 4get mi
dun wait fer mi alr
im not worth ur wait
it may seem tat i dun care, but i do
its not exactly lyk i dun love u anymore
we dun have to be 2gether even thou we love each other
it may be better tis way
take care always moi love
our memories will always be kept inside moi <33>

exams period

2009-02-24T16:24:00.005+08:00

im back pple =))
to update alil on wad i`ve been doin tis few days
having exams currently
juz finished 2 paper, n 2more to go
poprii was a killer, i swear
i dun even noe whether i can pass anot
sighh
tmr is mdmat
n last paper coatings
yest went back sch to study wif erjie
b4 tat went to gen`s hse to collect da stuffs tat i`ve asked her to print =))
thanks babe
studied til 5 den i headed back hm
to watch tv =D
den dinner n facebook
took a nap n woke up at 10+
haha. damn tired.
i slept at 4+ da previous nite to rush moi reports
n woke up at 8 =.=

stayed hm today
lazy to go sch also
haha. plans fer lata will be studyin
after i finish watchin tv =D

sat nite played wii wif xiuping
n facebook wif erjie n xiuping til 4den slp also =.=
cant rmb wad i did on sun
ohh, rushin moi reports. hehehe

sat had popeyes at airport t3 wif mom erjie n peggy
den headed hm ard 10+
peggy bought erjie n i pooh n piglet
hehe. omg tat piglet is sooooo damn cute

fri i had dinner wif fq
to celebrate our 1yr anniversary
it was on thur actually
but i had paper on fri, so make it fri

recently i bought a dress from dorothy perkins
n a leggings, which i`ve considered fer damn long
haha. coz im not very used to tat
in fact, i dun lyk at all
but i`ve tis very short bubble skirt
i guess i`ll be nice to pair it wif leggings
rather den not wearin tat, i rather spend money on one more to make tat piece 'wearable'
haha. let's see when i`ll try wearin. haha

tat`s moi piglet =D

moi piglet n erjie`s pooh. they`re gd friends =D

fq`s tiggers. da right side one is bought by mi, but its naughtier den da left side one
but i still adore da both of them =)

da one i bought is da younger one. he`s always bullying his elder brother. sighh

Leona Lewis - Better In Time

2009-02-22T20:48:00.002+08:00

[Verse]
It`s been the longest winter without you
I didn`t know where to turn to
See somehow I can`t forget you
After all that we`ve been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock (Whose there, no one?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realized
That I really didn`t know

If you didn`t notice
You mean everything (quickly I`m learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I`m be OK

[Chorus]
Thought I couldn`t live without you
It`s going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah (It`ll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I`m gonna smile because I deserve too
Oh (It`ll all get better in time)

[Verse]
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If I`m dreamin`
Don`t want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that`s the past (I believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn`t notice
Well you mean everything (quickly I`m learning)
Oh turn up again (all I know is)
I`m be OK

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Since there`s no more you and me (no more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be (no no no no no no)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus x2]

Ina - I Wanted You

2009-02-17T22:53:00.003+08:00

Lately I`ve been thinking about what I can do

I`ve been stressing to fall back in love with you

I`m so sorry that I couldn`t follow through

But I can`t go on this way, I`ve gotta stop it babe

You`ve been wonderful in all that you can be

But it hurts when you say that you understand me

So believe me, I, I am sorry, I

I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted you

I`ve been pushing hard to open up the door

Trying to take us back to where we were before

But I`m done, I just can`t do this anymore

'Cuz we can`t be mended now, so let`s stop pretending now

We`ve been walking around in circles for some time

And I think we should head for the finishing line

So believe me, I, I am sorry, I

I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me throught it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I ... I`m so sorry baby

But I, I ... I gotta pack up and leave

But I, I`ll always remember how we came close

... to being how I wanted to be

I wanted you baby, I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

tis song seems to fit my situation nw

i jus wanna be happy

i jus wan da same old feelin back

but i guess its over

no matter hw u piece back da broken parts

there`ll still be da crack there

its sth tat even time cant heal

okie im thkin too much again

tmr is moi 1st paper alr

i need to study real hard den. take care pple

sorry fer da lack of updates =)

diarrhoea =((

2009-02-06T01:39:00.003+08:00

tis few days keep havin diarrhoea
i dunno wad`s wrong =((
cny eve i visited toilet 4times
how sad
den i cant have curry tat day
lucky after tat feelin okie
but recently it happened again
thkin whether to see doc anot
everytime i said if it happens again on tat day, i`ll go
but it`ll never happen
den few days lata it came back again
wad`s tis???

anyway, went out wif gen today
happy happy =))
had sakae sushi fer lunch
which led mi to havin diarrhoea again
twice today alr
wanted to go to tat stupid, idiotic, irresponsible shop to refund tat dress
but it was closed =.=
can it be such coincidence?
lyk wtf lor!!
nvm. after tat we went town
shop fer vday present wif gen
den watch brides war
never ate dinner, coz both of us not feelin hungry
so walk ard
n i bought a num flip flop =))
its nice, thou i dun really lyk gold
haha. n back hm =))

tis few days been very obsessed wif wii
haha. no time to do alot of things. sighh
exams are comin, yet no heart to study
i muz force moiself to stop playin next week le
last yr, last sem alr
have to really jiayou ^^

alright nth much alr
so many thots runnin thru moi mind
very confused
cant differentiate wad`s truth n wad`s lies,
wad`s wrong n waad`s right anymore
very tired alr
gdnights peeps!

girls' dreams?

2009-02-05T01:53:00.002+08:00

i came across tis, which i thk is rather true
at least to mi, 90%, i dunno abt other girls =)

*leave her cute n sweet text/notes everytime
*kiss her infront of ur frens
*tell her she looks beautiful
*look into her eyes when u`re talkin to her
*let her mess wif ur hair
*walk ard wif her
*forgive her fer her mistakes
*look at her lyk she's da only girl u see
*tickle her when she says stop
*hold her hand when u`re wif ur frens
*reach fer her hand, dun wait fer her to do so
*dun let her be da one to always call u
*when she starts swearin at u, tell her 'i love u'
*let her fall aslp in ur arms
*get her mad, den kiss her
*tease each other
*stay up wif her all nite when she's sick
*watch her fav movie wif her
*kiss her forehead
*give her da world
*write letters to her
*hang out wif her when she's feelin down
*let her noe she's impt
*let her take all photos she wants of u
*kiss her in da pourin rain
*tell her when u fell fer her
*when u say u love her, say it from da bottom of ur heart, mean every single word u said

i dun wanna shed anymore tears

2009-02-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

can i juz give up everything nw?
im very tired
tired of getting 4gtten by moi loved oneam
tired of remindin things tat are often not done
he can rmb every1, esp his classmates but not mi
i hope im juz being too sensitive
am i juz not da right girl fer u?
if tat`s da case, pls tell mi
i wun hinder u to pursue ur happiness
yes, i`ll be sad
after all those tat we`ve gone thru
but no pt stayin when we`re not happy
am i right?
mayb tat time was a mistake made
i shld juz leave u
den u wun be so stressed right nw
1person upset is better den 2person
its simply moi fault
fer wanting u back
im sorry
i wanna talk to sum1 so badly
but no1`s there fer mi
i dun wanna bother her
tmr is an impt day fer her
all i can is to say my feelings out here
perhaps not everything
but at least there`s sum1 to 'listen' to mi

Plain White T's - 1, 2, 3, 4

2009-02-03T15:44:00.002+08:00

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad
I'm so glad that I found you
I love being around you

You make it easy
As easy as 1 2, (1 2 3 4)
There's only one thing two do three words four you
I love you (I love you)
There's only one way two say those three words
And there's what I'll do
I love you (I love you)

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things that you never even tell you closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had

I'm so glad that I found you
I love being around you

Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily

2009-02-03T15:14:00.004+08:00

My skin is like a map, where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing
So I lay down my guard, drop my defenses, down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do your know you're leaving them all over this heart of mine too
If I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

bugis

2009-01-14T23:33:00.008+08:00

nvm. i was juz abt to upload pics here n it started to lag after da 4th pic
=.= nvm den. i shall go elsewhr n upload if gt chance. hehe
was late fer lesson today. hehe
tis mornin very cold
triple e lesson, followed by poprii presentation
supposingly is 3groups present
but onli 1 group prepare
so moi presentation was postponed to 1week lata
yuppiess ^^
after lesson met gen awhile to take moi datasheet
after so long of not seeing her, it feels weird to see her again
but of cse, im happy n contented, even its fer tat lil while
den i headed to nuh to find parents
after which, we went to bugis n met up wif erjie
had our lunch, which by den we were so hungry alr
after lunch we went to buy dad`s bottoms
dad today quite happy. haha
so bought quite alot =D
but coz he`s still feelin tired n numb
we went back after tea break
also coz aunt was here =.=
so went back hm n i took a nap
from 6-7
almost cant wake up. lols
den tv n dinner
went down to walk walk wif erjie
da wind is sooo cooling, or rather cold lar. hehe
den back hm n phoned baby
i dunno wad else to say
hope we`re improving thou =((
den bathed n online
wanted to post pics, but moi internet juz sucks lar
gonna slp soon i guess
everynite so late slp
i will die
tat`s wad i told erjie
hahaha. alright. nitess
*lights off*

suhui & mi. while walkin to station. haha

im loving moi current hair =D lovess <33 align="left">

feelin is weird

i simply dun understand

y izzit of such coincidence

tat both sides always have problems at da same time

sighhs

i can onli conclude one thing

tat is: problems lie wif mi

tat`s da onli thing i can thk of

really, it cant be so qiao tat both of them dislyk mi

or rather, having problems wif mi

i dunno hw to say. its okie den =)

i have to be happy everyday =D

i muz lead a happy life in order to make pple ard mi happy =))

i shall start from today

i`ll make mistakes at times, but pls 4give mi

its not easy to change overnight

=)) lovess <33

i feel loved again

2009-01-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

i dunno wad to blog
i went to do moi hair fer 4hrs today =.=
haha. moi hair is dark nw
no more bright bright
hehe. onli moi highlights ba i guess =))
slightly lighter
but i love =D
n we`re okie alr. hehe
wif her =D
im glad
hurhur~
nw onli left him
sighh
tell mi when can we solve our prob???
i`ve tried every means to make tis work
but it doesnt seem gd to u
tell mi wad else shld i do to please u?
i dunno wad more shld i do
bcoz wadeva i do juz seem wrong n never correct
would u mind to tell mi how?

wad shld i name?

2009-01-12T23:52:00.004+08:00

hello peeps
yest i did spring cleaning
but onli cleaning da windows
haha. but juz alone tat is very tiring alr
there`s more to come =((
at nite bathed alr watched money not enough 2 wif erjie
haha. den go slp

today biomaterials 1st lesson
den no more le
coz tutorials for biomaterials n triple e one cancelled
=D went to have breakfast cum lunch den to lib to do our assignment
waited fer lizhen to come
den we did until 2+ n back hm =))
reached hm took a nap alr
dunno y. too tired i guess
slept til 1730 den wake up
watch tv den buy dinner back
den tv n slp again
lols. lyk pig
erjie also another one
squeeze in beside mi wif hei hei
den 2piggies + 1devil slpin
hehe. woke up at 10+ n bathed
den nw online. hurhur~

we seem to be drifting further apart
wad happened i dunno
if u choose not to love mi anymore
or to leave mi,
im very disappointed in u
we`ve went thru so much b4
n nw u wanna give mi up juz fer a person?
do u thk its really tat worth it?
our 3yrs of frenship is gonna end juz lyta?
dun push mi ard lyk a trash
if u really thk u dun wan to have any connections wif mi
okie, i respect ur decision
but dun hold mi back
i dun wan us to be leaving n comin back fer each other
lyk i`ve said, if u choose to give up
im onli too disappointed
there`s nth much to say also

awhile u`re so gd to mi
da next moment u`re so cold to mi
i seriously dunno wad u`re thkin
sighh

im so lyk being abandoned by moi 2most beloved =((
moi world is no longer as colourful as b4
da colours are fading gradually towards nowhr
soon it`ll be complete darkness
but im glad i still have moi family to stop moi world from turing black =)
<33s

fyp presentation

2009-01-11T13:49:00.003+08:00

yeah, fyp is finally over!!
can relax nw alr
many misunderstandings have occurred during fyp
hopefully its settled =))
presentation was okie thou
1st time i dun feel so nervous =D
tat`s a gd thing
den stayed in da lab from 8-5pm
after which to da concourse fer polymer nite
it was fun thou
hehe. den buffet dinner n back hm
initially da plan was to meet baby hm
coz he was at town wif his frens
but never in da end
kinda expected also
its okie. im tired too
slept earli tat nite

yest went out wif mom
to parkway
i gt moi heels alr =D
very nice
loving it more n more
hehe. edwin drove us there
den he went out wif erjie
had dinner den back hm
reached hm use com den rest awhile
den erjie called n said wanna go hk cafe
so i changed n went down wait fer them
went to upper east coast de
sat there n drink n eat dessert
abt 1+ den back hm
wash up everything den slp

woke up n had lunch
den dad went to cut hair
back hm
dunno wad to do lata
planned to meet baby also
but i thk no more again
sighh. mayb spring cleanin at hm =)
take care peeps
i`ll upload pics again

i dun lyk fu yan
dun say u love mi fer da sake of it
i noe im not important in ur life anymore alr
but pls dun treat mi lyk a toy
i feel so being manipulated by u
u`re juz not lyk u
nw i noe da feelin of loving sum1 more den da person loves u
da feeling totally sucks
i noe i`ve lost da u in da past
its hard to find back who u used to be
i dunno wad to do anymore
bcoz our r/s seems to be fading
its gettin weaker n weaker
sum1 pls kill mi
i rather die to have tis feeling

laopo

2009-01-08T00:05:00.003+08:00

yest no lesson
juz went sch let ms ong check our presentation
tue nite i do until 3+ den slp =((
i slept at 4+
woke up at 9 lyta
very tired =((
lucky our presentation onli needs some editting =D
after which went lib to do some editting den go eat
den laopo called mi n asked mi out
after lunch i met her at city hall
we went suntec
poor her
den walked alr we went chinatown
den back to her place
den dinner wif her n her bf at downstairs
they seem so loving =)
if onli us ... sigh
den back to her place n watch tv
den asked her abt some make up thingy
back hm at 10
bathed den packed moi drawers
den online
talked to baby
slept at 4+

today i cant wake up fer mornin prac lor. lols
suhui gave mi 6missed calls
very power. haha. den she called moi hse
woke up bathe den go sch
w/o any meals =((
so hungry lor
go sch bake muffins fer tmr de presentation
den go set up our booth n back hm
i went to meet baby den have dinner at his place
watched tv til 10 den he sent mi back =))
im glad we`re okie nw
mayb not lyk b4, but i`ll try to pull us even closer =)
baby, i hope u lyk those stuffs =)
it may not cost much, i may not be da best gift
but hope u dun mind =) lovess <33
tmr is moi fyp presentation alr
very stress nw
haha. i wanna die alr. so scared also
sigh. juz have to try moi best le =))
take lots care
wish mi luck pple =D
nitess

improvement?

2009-01-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

well, went sch in da mornin
coz csw was changed to today
fri was polymer day, so no lesson whole day
b4 tat peter said lesson changed to 4pm
initially was 2.30pm
but i told him i have sth on at 4.30pm =)
sch finished at 1pm today
den i went to eat, wif suhui
after which we went to lib to find bg
he passed mi da ppt slides den we went back alr
reached rest awhile den erjie n i went to kallang leisure park
wanted to take shuttle bus, but we missed it, again
haha. so took bus there
she bought goggles den to watsons n back hm
mom said wanna go back to old hse there
den went there wif her n erjie
bought dinner back
3packets 4pple share
haha. coz i wanted to eat da western at moi hse downstairs
but no one wanna go buy wif mi =((
den they say share
den end up i eat rice wif eggs onli
LOL. suhui was juz tellin mi tat those guys sittin behind mi when i was eatin were eatin rice n egg
den i asked hw to eat lyta??
nw i noe hw. heh
den tv n bathed
goin to cont moi ppt slides
oh well, gdnitess peeps
wish mi luck =)

yes, there`s slight improvement between us
but its not wad i expect
well, better den nth
at least i can feel sth
guess there`s no time fer us to meet
or mayb u dun wanna see mi =(
sighh. all i wish fer nw is tat pls dun ignore mi
girls are to be doted, isnt it?
but i guess its different fer moi case
not tat u dun dote mi, mayb im askin too much from u
im sorry
i shldnt add on to ur burden anymore
i shldnt ask fer more
its enough love alr
yea im lyin again
sigh =(

heart broken

2009-01-06T00:40:00.002+08:00

sat mornin went to nuh
wif dad mom n erjie
after tat we waited fer dunno hw long fer sis
but she still not done yet
so we went to bugis on our own 1st
but dad seemed abit unhappy
after jie reached, we went shopping
went to buy dad`s clothings first
den jiefu brought dad to sit down, while da rest cont shoppin
girl, peggy n andrew were there too =))
i bought a whole piece err, dunno hw to say
whole piece clothing from m)phosis
i saw a pair of heels there too
very nice
perhaps i`ll get it =))
den never shop finish we went back le
thk dad n jiefu wait until very bu nai fan alr
had dinner at jie`s place
stayed over there

sun had breakfast at botak jones
damn full
den went back hm to slack
ard 4+ we went back
dad n mom back hm
erjie, mi n peggy went bugis again =))
we bought 2dresses n 2tops
i bought sth for baby too
dunno if there`s chance to see him in it =((
was very tired
reached hm, rest awhile den slp
so tired tat i fell aslp
den woke up at 2+ n went to slp again on bed

mornin i missed biomaterials again
sighh
very tired =((
went sch fer lab
den to print our fyp report
waited fer tat damn printer
which took so much of our time
den nvm
we went to eat
den to tutorial
after tat to lib to print sth again
n we waited lyk hell also
finally handed up our report
but still have presentation to worry abt
summore its tis fri
very rushin. hopefully i can finish on time
den back hm n rest
woke up had dinner n watch tv
10pm i acc erjie to xiuping`s hse to scan sth
den back hm n bathe
nw waitin fer hair to dry
wanted to do moi presentation
but too moody to do anything
take care pple =)

i regretted not helpin u to take tat brochure tat day
i really regretted
i noe hw many times i apologise = useless
sighh
i`ve no one to turn to
i`ve no one to speak to
all i can do is juz vent everything here
not fer u to see, but fer mi to pour everything out =((
i feel so sad
y am i always making u so disappointed n angry
am i really always wrong?
i`ve tried to pull us closer tis few days
but it doesnt seem to work
n i noticed u`ve changed also
almost cant recognise u
i said i will try to adapt to wad`s goin on nw
yes i`ll try
but i dunno wad will happen
i feel so much lyk giving up
but i cant bear to
im so xing ku nw
bcoz i dunno wad to do
im afraid wad if i did sth wrong again,
n u leave mi?
u dunno wad to do
i dunno wad to do also
i so feel lyk dying
perhaps i can solve everything
perhaps not
everyday i tried to hold moi tears when i thk of u
i seriously dunno wad can be done alr =((

1st post in yr 2009

2009-01-03T01:45:00.004+08:00

well well well, happy 2009 once again =))
1st of jan was spent purely at hm
coz mi, erjie n xiuping played monopoly until 5 in da mornin. haha
wanted to join them fer breakfast, but im too tired
so i went to slp n woke up at 12-1+
had moi lunch n watch tv
den surf net n went to slp at 5 again
mom woke us up at 7+ to have dinner
den tv til night time

today woke up late
thus never go fer lesson
but still i went back sch to do fyp
was embarrassed on moi way to sch
coz i did sth stupid on da train
lyk again. sigh
startin of 2009 onli n moi 'old habit' started again
nvm abt tat. went sch to do film extrusion
luckily everything went well
finished ard 3+ lyta
went to eat wif suhui
hungry til die le
den back hm
wanted to meet gen fer dinner, but she`s busy doin her fyp
so dun disturb her
supposed to meet baby too, but due to sum misunderstanding
there goes our date =((
oh well, so went hm n watch tv
helped mom to do sth
den ate one 'fan guo' n tv
den eric called n asked mi out fer dinner wif boonseng
they very fast lor
say give mi 10mins to change den they come fetch mi alr
lols. very fast
at 1st i thot they wanna play mi
but lucky its fer real
haha. GANBOONSENG!! so long never see him alr lor
always busy wif gf
haha. nw finally gt chance to meet up
dinner at astons =))
had lots of laughter lar
coz its wif them
they never fail to make mi laugh lor
thou sumtimes im da subject, but still its okie
so long they happy, i also happy =))
so many yrs de frens also
i noe wad they`re lyk
hehe. gd frens, gd buddies =))
went over to parkway
wanna wait fer xj to finish work, but dunno wad time she knock off
so we went back 1st
thanks bs fer sendin mi back =))
reached hm bathed n on phone wif baby
chatted 'alot' of things
cried over many stuffs
sighh
i dunno wad to say alr
shall not say too much here either

i juz wanna say, i love moi family =))
i love moi erjie
coz she`s very nice n gd to mi =))
when i came back from da corridor juz nw
she cared fer mi
i feel so touched
i feel so blessed to have her as moi sis
last time moi mom too
i juz love moi family =D
i love moi baby
i love moi LG
i love moi frens
but i dun love moiself =((

moi happy family =D

to hell wif 2008 =P

2008-12-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

yea, tis shall be da final post fer yr 2008
shall not update on wad i did fer da past few days
so many stuffs have happened in yr 2008
there`s gd, there`s bad
but i guess there`s more bad den gd
tears have been flowin lyk no one`s biz too
i dun lyk it
i hope yr 2009 will be a betta yr fer all of us =))
esp to moi family
gd health, gd wealth =))
to moi frens too
may happiness follow u guys =D
take lots care pple
i agree totally wif pat
fark 2008
haha. too bored at hm
den found him online n chat wif him
lonely new yr eve
wad to do. ha.
but nvm. i still have moi most beloved to spend moi new yr wif mi
n tat`s moi sis n moi aunt =D
thou its not wif moi bf or even gd fren,
thou im kinda pissed off,
still im contented
hehe. gonna go watch fireworks lor
hopefully can see =D

i wish everybody gd health n happiness!!
everything shall go smoothly fer everyone of us =D
WELCOME 2009!!!

updates

2008-12-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

13th dec:
after i went fer moi driving lesson,
i`ve decided to postpone moi TP
its really really too rush fer mi le
so peter said okie
after lesson, i went hm
den meet up wif baby at dunno wad time
by den im alr too famished le
went over to his place to meet yanxiang
den bought pizza back baby`s place n eat
den baby opened his bottle of martell when songboon came
after tat jianyang, wanheng, terrence n keeguang also came
+ another guy called dexter n melissa
drink finish 1bottle den open dexter bottle also
drink halfway they said wanna go down resort, thai disco at ecp
onli mi, baby, songboon, terrence, keeguang n dexter goin
da rest went hm
i thk da place is not tat bad lar
they`ve gt live band
thou da songs are abit too outdated =X
but they`re still quite gd i thk =))
back hm quite earli
as baby is not feelin well
reached hm bathed n slp
poor baby, dunno slept at wad time
coz he`s not feelin gd

14th dec:
we woke up n went to eat
den went cold storage walk walk
haha. after which he sent mi back hm =))
jie came back from taiwan n came to our hse
bought alot of snacks back
haha. den they left b4 dinner
dinner was bought from downstairs

15th dec:
did i went sch? i cant rmb
haha. can rmb wad i did

16th dec:
same thing, dunno did i went sch
dunno wad i did

17th dec:
i went to find baby den stayed there til he went sch
i went to airport to fetch moi erjie
while waiting, i went to eat bk
haha. coz her flight was delayed =.=
den back hm

18th dec:
went over to old hse market fer breakfast
den back hm
dunno do wad n i went to parkway to get sth
n back hm
rushin to go hm
coz takin da shuttle bus to kallang leisure fer dinner
but erjie 4mis-read da timing
so we still took bus 11 there
gen was wif us too
after dinner den mi n gen took da shuttle bus back hm
den i went to bathe n gt ready
cabbed down to play 1st
but tat farkin place sucked lar
not da 1st, but da 2nd
all da seats were reserved lor
kns
anyway, there`s mi, gen, pat, jeenson n his fren, wanxuan
den we cabbed down to zouk
had fun there =))
very crazy also. haha
da event was until 3
but we clubbed until 2 den went out
coz wanxuan was drunk alr
all thanks to baby who sent her back to jeenson`s hse
den gen followed mi hm
a big thank you to moi baby =)) *muackss*
back hm bathed den slp le
soooo tired =.=

19th dec:
happy 10mths baby
had breakfast den back hm bathed
gen left after breakfast
den went down to nuh wif parents n erjie
we waited fer damn farkin long lar
sians
after which had desserts n back hm
rushin again
coz made baby wait fer damn long
we went to vivo
shopped fer xmas presents fer his sisters
moi no stock, so never get
n back to geylang fer frog porridge
*yum yum* lovesss
nice nice
den went back to his place n went to resort again
onli us, songboon n dexter
dexter left earli coz he`s workin da next day
den da 3of us headed down to cabana to meet up wif songboon`s fren
b4 tat baby n dexter went to eat
n dexter had 2fillet burgers =.= haha
i never drink much on tat day
juz feelin slpy =.=
summore is beer after martell
we left quite earli
i dunno wad time
but we stayed out til quite late
coz songboon was drunk
haha. he drank too much alr
we stayed until he`s feelin slightly betta den we went back baby`s place
i bathed n slept at 5+
baby too =))

20th dec:
woke up at 12+ in da mornin
sorry cousins, tat da kbox session was cancelled
well, im not da onli one who overslept
wadeva =.=
den lunch at his place nearby
coz mj session was initally at 2pm
after lunch, went over to songboon`s place, coz he wanted to wash up
n they changed to 4pm instead
okie den. we watched tv n all
den they changed to 6pm =.=
abit pissed off
coz waited fer so damn long
den went over to yaoguang`s place fer mj
wif baby, jianyang n yaoguang
songboon played games
haha. i won $8 =D
coz we play small small onli
den back hm
wanted to slp earli
but i watched da andy lau movie until 3 den slp =.=
very tired

21st dec:
today is dong zhi
woke up at 9+ juz to go fer driving lesson
so tired lor
den back hm use com awhile n went to slp
hehe. slept til 3+ den wake up
den had curry n bread
den watch tv
after tat dinner time, i still feel full
went to play game
den halfway i fell aslp again =X
6+ slept til 8+
hehe. tonite cant slp le =((
den dinner n online le =))
tmr still muz go sch earli
boring =((
hopefully can wake up on time
haha. nightss pple

u`ve found ur sum1 i guess =)
im no longer needed
no love~

random thots

2008-12-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

izzit betta tis way?
or shld it remain da way it is?
i dunno
it juz started
i dunno hw useful it`ll be
i hope at least it`ll help
coz i dun see any improvement til nw
i feel so lost right nw
seems tat i have u
but u`re not wif mi
not as in physically
but emotionally
i wish i wish
tell mi wad to do to make things right
da way it used to be
or perhaps never used to be
sighh
im really tired
tired of tryin
tired of givin in
i need more love pls
to make mi feel im not lonesome in tis world
do i really dunno hw to be sum1
i mean to be mi?
i am who i am
i hate to change moiself
but if changin will change moi fate
i dun mind givin it a try
yes its hard
so hard
tat i dun even thot of initiatin it
it seems tat i have everything
but in fact i have nth but moi family
perhaps some frens n love
but tat`s not wad i wan
i wan MORE
i dun wan anything superficial
i need da real thing
ya lyk 4eva im always thkin so much
i dun wan to
but i cant help
we seem near
but actually so far
sighhs

pictures

2008-12-13T15:06:00.015+08:00

5th & 6th dec:

da birthday girl

da peeps: jeenson, patrick & melissa

jiemeis: randy, genieve n mi =))

moi dearest dearie

some group pics =))

dinner&dance nite:

ANGRY

2008-12-13T13:20:00.003+08:00

im so angry =(( juz nw da post gone
sighh
have to repost again
i shall keep it short, wif more pics =))

5th dec:
happy bday moi dearest dearie
also last paper fer mst
=DDD
after da paper, went to gen`s hse to surprise her
hurhur~
den stayed fer awhile n back hm, while she headed to sch
reached hm, rushed her present
hope she lyks =DD
den went to meet them fer dinner
was very very late
so sorry
met up wif randy at ps
bought da cake n walked over to cathay
had astons fer dinner =))
after dinner back hm
coz nowhr to hang out
gen stayed over at moi place
den we chatted til 3+4 n slp =P

6th dec:
woke up at 12+
had lunch n off to vivo
we caught beverly hills chihuahua
hehe
nice show wif alot of adorable doggies
den we walked ard n had dinner at superdog
hm sweet hm den

7th dec:
erjie is finally back =DDD
hopefully she`s comin back fer gd thou
had lunch at popeye
den back hm
she bought da lancome magnifique =D
sooo nice =DDDD
den catch up alot n went fer dinner
ard 9+ lyta i went over to gen`s place to stay over

8th dec:
woke up ard 6+ in da mornin
gt prepared to go cycling wif gen n her family n frens
haha. at ubin
da weather is not very gd
coz its rainin
but still, its not cancelled
well, cycling under da rain is a new experience fer mi
haha. thou its kinda fun (coz of gen), its very dirty also
haha. lucky i wore slippers
easy to wash =PPP
had lunch there too
den back to gen`s hse to clean up
left at 5+ n had dinner downstairs wif family

9th dec:
erjie went to phillipines alr
=(( woke up at ard 11+ i thk
haha. den suhui came over
we went down to get our hair done
well, moi hair looks weird
haha. perhaps its too much alr, so looks weird
behind is nice, coz its messy
haha. wadeva
den came back to change
took cab down shaw hse fer make up
shu umera =))
i LOVE da eyes she did fer mi
sooooooooooooooooooooo farkin nice
i wish i had those eyes, lyk 4eva
haha.
went over to mariott hotel n wait
quite a nice dinner
had fun n laughter
haha. after dinner took pics
btw, da host is very humorous =D
den baby came n sent mi hm =))

10th dec:
cant rmb wad i did
i noe im sick alr =((

11th dec:
went to sch to do fyp
do until 3 den i left fer moi driving lesson
when i left sch, da weather was okie
when i reached eunos, it was onli slight drizzle
but when im on bus reachin da DC
suddenly rain very heavily =.=
sians
even standin under shelter i also can get wet
moi whole legs were almost wet lor
den i stood at da bridge there
coz i see pple standing there. haha
while waitin fer da rain to stop,
i saw tis guy
he looked at mi, i look at him
he smiled at mi, i smiled at him
den he asked mi izzit crossin over
i said no. goin to dc
den he asked wad time is moi lesson
i said 4 (its alr 4by den)
he`s such a nice person lor
he sheltered mi over to dc
very very kind
n he`s half drenched lor
i feel so bad
but he`s really very gd =))
thanks kind soul
i waited fer da rain to get smaller den went to find peter
after lesson baby came n fetch mi back
had dinner n tv

12th dec:
went sch fer fyp again
coz today need to hand in da 1st draft of our report
rushed until no time to eat
pathetic
mi n suhui were sooo hungry
haha. den we left at 3+ n went over to mr lau's hse
fer class gathering
had dinner n watched movie there
haha. after tat took bus back n watched tv
slept at 2+

13th dec:
woke up at 12 =DD
hehe. was very sick alr lar =((
took moi breakfast n watch tv
den nw come n update moi blog =))
got driving lesson lata
hopefully it wun rain =X

i shall blog da pics again
stupid internet gt prob again
sighhs =((

2more, 2 more =))

2008-12-03T23:46:00.004+08:00

hurhur~

2more papers n im done wif mst =))

kuishin-bo yest was fun

da food was quite nice, esp da seafoods

yummy!!

abt da sashimi thingy, its very funny

haha

moi fren actually ate da 9men-share sashimi all by himself (almost all)

omg!! tat shows hw much he actually LOVE sashimi

heh! after dinner, we were all damn full

they went out fer a puff n chattin

den they said wanna go bee`s hse to drink

from 9pple reduced to 6

mi, bee, song boon, yan xiang, yao guang n melissa

lucky yx was ard

coz im takin microdevices&materials paper today

n tat`s his field!!

so lucky mi =))

i studied there, while they were drinkin n foolin ard

i slept at 3am =((

but its weird tat i dun feel tired

hehe

woke up at 7 today n bee sent mi to sch

poor him. sick alr

never go work today

mc fer 2days

gd life, tmr whole day at hm slpin

haha.

anyway, today`s paper wasnt tat hard

prolly i did moi revision yest nite =P

very last min, but tat`s juz mi =))

tmr is nano le

i still haven study a single shit

hopefully i have da correct mood to study lata

if not i`ll die =((

alright, shall stop here =))

chuchu~

boy

2008-12-02T16:58:00.000+08:00

pls dun make mi lose faith in u
ur tone, ur attitude, makes mi feel lyk im being loved fer da sake of it onli
wad have u becoming?
i noe u`re busy, but does tat mean its time to neglect mi?
pls spare a thot fer mi hao ma?
its not easy being in tis position
always waiting fer sth imposible to happen lyta
sigh
n also its ALWAYS a coincidence hw things turned out uh
wadeva tat had happened, sure gotta do wif qiao he
im sick of it seriously
when is tis gonna end? =((

kuishin-bo

2008-12-02T16:07:00.008+08:00

another paper down

left wif 3more

have to jiayou jiayou ^^

juz back hm from sch

gotta study alr

coz goin to kuishin-bo wif baby n his frens fer dinner

2nd visit there =))

tmr is da stupid triple e paper

TOTALLY not relevant in moi course

dunno y we shld take tat module

its a waste of time, seriously

im starting to miss da old mi =((

i noe i cant do it, but its juz a random thot

so much so i feel lyk again ...

mst week

2008-12-02T00:42:00.003+08:00

hoho, im here to update a lil

been very very lazy nwadays

n i`ve been figuring out wad to do wif da livejournal

since im lyk totally giving up on blogspot alr

but still i cant managed to figure anything out

oh fine den

i shall stick to tis fer da time being

lalala!! popri2 juz over today

thk i die alr

coz da calculations suddenly 4gt hw to do

sigh

but still managed to find sum results

hopefully method was used correctly

after paper, went to microlab to do test wif bg

basically im da one doin EVERYTHING

=(( so sad uh

haha. nvm

since i enjoy doin tis, i shall not comment much

finished ard 11 den back hm

went to buy lunch wif mom

back hm, took moi lunch n turned on lappy le

surf net n went to slp =X

i was soooo tired

coz i wasnt able to slp yest nite

due to tat perhaps 1hr nap i took yest evenin =((

n tat landed mi on bed, wif proper slp at 2am yest

which i woke up at 7am tis mornin

okie lar i still get 5hrs of slp =P

tmr is coatin paper

sighh

n nw, at 0048 hr, im lyk onli quarter of it

y? coz everything theory

i see alr also sian

let alone go study

sigh. y wasnt im born smarter a lil?

or at least give mi a better memory

so tat i wun have to study until wanna die lyta

haha.

erjie comin back on sun =DDD yuppiess!!

lovess lovess

finally she`s back

but she`s goin phillipines again on moi dnd nite

=(( nvm. she`ll be back soon

hurhur~ dnd`s on 9th dec

no close frens

onli class peeps

nvm

i shall enjoy da nite (tryin to) =D

okie okie

enough of sayin

i muz go cont studyin alr =((

sighh =((((

lovess~

=))

2008-10-23T13:49:00.008+08:00

well, sch ended earli today

coz i`ve onli prac fer today =))

yest supposed to play tennis

but due to da rain,

gen n i were stuck at her hse,
playin com games =D

had dinner den back hm

she stayed over

n went sch together today

hmm, nth much to blog also

tmr long day =((

i thk im gettin lazy n lazier each day

haha~

perhaps its really not worth cryin over sumbody

coz he/she will not even noe hw much tears have u cried fer him/her

n so wad if he/she noes?

will tat stop ur tears from flowin down?

no i suppose =)

therefore, will try to control emotions from nw

so as tears will not OVERflow =)

huggiess <33

some random pics =))

watchin bangkok dangerous

moi happy piggies family =D

dearie&mi at kallang leisure

moi current (nw faded) hair colour

nice nice top from pull&bear

im FINALLY back

2008-10-21T20:03:00.001+08:00

okie. i noe i`ve been missin fer yrs
haha. too exaggerating.
but super long since i last blogged
i also dunno y i feel lyk bloggin today

juz a brief one

moi 6weeks of hols are gone in a blink
very very fast
been goin back sch to do fyp
but onli last 2weeks lar
poor gen, goin back almost every week
n i started driving alr =))
nth much also lar
juz lyta =D

sch started last week
so fast its da 2nd week of sch alr
heh. tis sem kinda packed
not as free as last sem
anyway, last sem alr
muz jiayou =D

things doesnt turn out quite well nwadays
boy has been so busy wif his work
summore he`s gonna start sch soon
means fewer n fewer time wif mi alr
sighs. i`ll try to get used to it ba =

gt hooked by sum online games
i mean those 1hr trial de
im so obsessed wif those can
im lyk basically playin ALMOST everyday
den dl-ing new ones =))
never get sick of playin
perhaps tat`s da onli thing to acc when bf`s busy
i guess

went to parkway today alone to find nuer
but she went fer break
so i went walk walk alone
bought a tank top from mng
lyk again, TANK TOP =.=
moi wardrobe is FULL of tank tops i swear
but dunno y i`ll never get sick of them =))
saw a bra from sloggi
damn damn super nice
but den again, moi drawer is FULL of lingeries
so tat piece is a nice to see onli =((

after which bf came n we went ard searching fer moi laptop bag
finally found sum at popular
but din buy
he sent mi back hm
den im online, n goin to bathe very soon
not in a gd mood thou
coz coz, nvm
i hope u still <33 mi as much thou

n im starting to miss all moi frens
pri n sec schs peeps
hopefully i can find sum time to meet up wif them =)

n i thk i still lyk moi 1st yr class
n how da few of us gt so close juz weeks after sch starts
thou we still see each other nw,
i guess im onli closest to gen
blah blah blah~

pardon mi.
alright, nth much
bye!

missed!!

ps. any1 can help mi wif moi farkin blogskin?
i cant seem to edit anything freakin thing!!

update

2008-09-02T14:56:00.002+08:00

shall update briefly =))
exams are finally finished
at 1st i thot pm&a2 was dead alr
who noes cptec is also another killer paper
sighh. dunno hw to graduate lyta
hopefully those lecturers are gd enuff to pass mi
i dun ask fer more, juz a pass will do =))

dad had 2ops in 3weeks
i dunno izzit considered unlucky,or tat he`s blessed to have such strong body
coz he recovers damn fast
he`s able to walk on his own w/o da support of others alr
let alone da walkin stick =))
tat`s really a very great improvement i thk
except tat his left hand still feels weak
but he`s alr very gd le
he still managed to listen to pple n do exercise on his own
i juz went to do exercise wif him juz nw
or rather watch him lar =))
he went to climb up n down da stairs
his back neck stitches recovered until very nice
nw have to wait fer his stomach de to recover
hopefully he can recover fast fast =))

nw hols alr, until mid oct
i wanna find a job so badly =((
but i noe i cant workall bcoz of FYP!!
sighh. anyway, fyp is more impt lar
juz hope to finish it asap
coz tat next sem can concentrate =))

thur is moi 1st driving lesson le
so scare. haha
hopefully everything goes smoothly =D

andrew is comin back tis sat le
aunt peggy is movin back to bedok alr
no one to acc mi at nite le =((
haha. anyway, erjie will be back on sep
coz her ship is stoppin over at sg
hehe. miss miss her <33

alright ba. guess nth more to update alr =))
muackss~

can anybody or juz you or you or your to understand mi juz tat lil bit more?
sighh. all i nid is all of urs understandin tat`s all
n make mi feel lyk a blessed girl in tis world
i juz nid more love, more love n alot more love from moi loved ones =((
im juz a nobody`s child =(( sighss

unhappy

2008-08-17T23:26:00.003+08:00

im back, to update abit on wad had happened over da days

10/08/2008:

meet nuer to kbox, together wif baby n song boon

she gave mi a mango voucher worth $50 =))

thanks babe

we sang til 7pm den went to taka to buy cake

went back hm after tat wif baby n nuer

coz dad has to go nuh on mon, n we dunno if he needs to be admitted

so we celebrated moi bday today =)

after havin dinner, cut cake

den send nuer to bus stop n baby sent mi back hm den he left

11/08/2008:

woke up earli in da mornin

jiefu came to fetch us (dad, mom, aunt peggy n mi) wif jie to nuh

saw da doc in charge of dad`s op

he`s quite a nice guy

as in, at least we still get to see him, talk to him n stuffs

unlyk da spine doc, kns

den i left fer sch

reached sch den ms wee said wed we have to come back again

coz she dun have enough time to finish da roleplay =.=

no choice lor

went back nuh to find jie they all

had brunch den back hm

reached hm awhile lata den went out to meet gen they all

went to meet patrick n jeenson first

went to kbox

den gen brought randy in

i was lyk so surprised lor

haha. very very happy too =))

coz i`ve never seen him fer such a long long time

i missed moi jiemei so much =))

lucky he was able to make it

anyway, we cut cake n sing

randy had to go off earli coz he need to book in

so no choice =

sent him off wif gen den we went back

dinner at sakae sushi

wanted to eat ichiban, but under reno i thk

so went to wheelock to eat sakae

after tat went back hm le

coz its too late to go shop

gen came moi hse =))

den she passed mi her present

a ring =D (will upload da pics soon)

after tat went to station wif her

felt so blessed on tat day =))

12/08/2008:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! =D

dad gave mi angbao =P

1st time thou, haha

went to meet gen at city hall

had waffle (cant rmb da name of da shop)

den went walk walk at ms n suntec

din manage to get anything thou

so went back hm wif gen

we played uno spin =D

hehe. very fun

its always fun + laughter wif her ard =))

den dinner time baby came

n gen had to go back le

coz she meetin bf =))

thanks fer ur company on moi bday *smoochess*

went back hm wif baby to pick his clothes den back to moi place

he stayed over to accompany mi on moi day =))

thanks baby <33

13/08/2008:

baby sent mi to sch earli in da mornin fer da stupid quiz

which finished lyk 15mins?! heh!

den bought breakfast back n i went back to slp

very tired

woke up in da afternoon to go back sch again

fer da roleplay

den went back hm

15/08/2008:

went to cdc fer trial test wif aunt peggy

failed da 1st time n passed da 2nd time

den went to orchard to find dad`s stuffs

aunt peggy bought mi a levi's wallet =D

plus a top from there too. hehe

bought many mum mum back also =))

da shou huo =D

went to baby`s hse at nite to stay over

16/08/2008:

woke up earli in da mornin at 6+

went to work wif baby

i mean i stayed inside his car to wait fer him

studyin, slpin, studyin, slpin

after he finished, he sent mi to cdc to take moi btt

i PASSED!! =D

hehe. very happy n scared

after tat went to apply moi pdl n ftt

met up wif da instructor also

moi 1st lesson starts on 4th sep

so scared =X

after tat back hm to rest

i slept til 5-6+ den woke up

had dinner den slack n tv

17/08/2008:

went out wif aunt peggy to chinatown

reached there ard 3 lyta

walked ard den went to do foot n shoulder massage

coz moi left shoulder has been in so much pain recently

after da massage i felt better abit lar

haha. den went to find dad`s stuffs n back hm at abt 7+

had dinner den watch tv

den bathed n online le

so fast its alr 0020hr

alright den. i`d better go get sum rest nw

everyone in da hse is alr aslp except mi =)

gdnitess pple =))

they`re da best pals i`ve ever met i swear. love you guys
esp da pink pig aka moi lovely dearie =D
da black ginseng is da jessica alba look-a-like. HAHA
da very dao face is da kuku pad pad who`s in love wif a shemale. LOL~
den moi very hao jiemei, da green botak. hehe

sumtimes i juz wonder, wad`s wrong wif mi
how come i cant seem to speak a single word after u`ve spoken
am i really tat weak? tat soft-hearted tat i dun even dare to say anything further?
sighss. i juz have too many things inside mi
too many feelings kept down deep inside moi heart
i dunno who to turn to, i dunno wad shld i say
i dunno wad`s right n wad`s wrong
wad will be da consequences if i really said those things out
sumtimes, its juz those lil thots tat count
even a simple 'i love you' or 'i miss you' can really brighten moi day
those words can really make mi happy n relieved
at least i noe, i feel secured wif u
all i need, all i ask fer is tat can u juz shower mi wif a lil bit more wif ur love, care n concern?
tat`s really all i ever need from u moi love
im tryin very very hard to be very very understanding alr
i`ll do wadeva it takes to juz see u puttin a smile across ur face
seeing u smile, i am too, happy
i juz wan u to noe tat,
I LOVE YOU!! <33

happy happy

2008-08-09T18:25:00.004+08:00

moi dad`s op is a success =DD

very very happy

he gt discharged yest

but next week still gotta go back fer appt

coz they found another tumor in his large intestine

its not as serious as da spine one thou

still hope he`s fine

n he needs therapy in order to recover

jie quarrelled wif him yest over tis

sighh

very confused

over da money issue also

since they`re dad`s hard-earned money

den juz let him decide on hw he wanna spend those money lor

if u wan him to throw da whole sum of money fer da flat

its definitely a no-no wad

i noe i cant say much, coz i have a share in it too

but, aiya

i also dunno wad is she thkin

anyway, juz 3more days =))

n im lookin forward

thou cant go out to celebrate coz of dad

but i`ll still be as happy

being able to celebrate wif moi family n moi close frens =))

not forgettin moi baby <33

alright

nth much to update too

exams are juz ard da corner

lyk juz next next week?

heh. n moi btt too

sighh

all at once

HA!

juz have to study real hard after moi bday den =))

its juz not da same anymore

can u feel it?

its no longer da feelin i have felt b4

its juz so so different

sighh

i dunno wad to say either

u`ve changed =((

=((

2008-07-30T22:45:00.005+08:00

hmm, tmr moi dad`s gonna be admitted to da hosp alr

still feelin so scare

sighss

anyway, i went to cut moi hair tis afternoon

coz sum1 commented on moi hair tat looks lyk wild grass

LOL!!

no choice but to cut it

so long never trim le

heh

n, i dyed it violet red tis time round =)
cant see da 'long-short' effect

haha. coz da rest of da photos are stupid =X

tat`s all

thanks pple who cared fer moi dad ^^

sobss

2008-07-27T23:36:00.003+08:00

so long since i last updated
was really in da mood
anyway, abt moi dad`s report
he has a sort of tumor at his upper neck
at da head of da spine
n its a muz fer op
which is scheduled on fri, 25th july

n da nite juz b4 da day erjie left fer her ship
we were lyin on our preparing to slp
den she told mi she cant slp
n dunno y we chatted abt dad
den i suddenly cant control moiself
n i cried silently
i noe erjie was weepin too
den i went to toilet to wash up
i prayed to moi ah gong n ah ma to look after moi dad
making sure tat nth will happen to him
den i went back to moi room n went to sit beside erjie
i comforted her n tat i`ll take care of dad
i can see tat she`s worried fer dad too
n tat she cant stay back to take care of him
dun worry erjie,
dad will be fine n everything shall go smoothly =))
we have to be optimistic, thou we`re often being pessimistic
fer tis time, we HAVE to thk positively uh =))
miss ya~

so we admit him to nuh on thur
n he needed to do another 2scans
tat`s to make sure IF da tumor is cancerous,
it wun spread to other parts of his body
we waited damn long fer da scan
after which we went to do da admission stuffs
n den da doc came n check on moi dad
n she said moi dad`s op has to be cancelled
i was puzzled
dunno wad happened
i went to tell moi sis
den she came n da doc told us they found sth more serious
at tat time i was so scared
she said tat particular 1 blood vessel of moi dad was unusual
its bulging out n its quite dangerous if its flowing upwards,
which is towards da heart area
if its flowin down, it can be controlled by medicine
so he had to do da CT scan
in order to find out da direction of da flow
after tat, moi sis went out
i dunno wad to do inside so i went out to find her also
after she finished talkin on da phone,
i cant help but to break down
im really really very scared n worried
i dun wan anything to happen to moi dad
den moi sis told mi nth will happen
dad will be fine
we have to be strong infront of him
we have to act happy infront of him
in order not to let him worry
hence, i wiped moi tears n went back in after coolin down
dad was havin his dinner
we stayed til after dinner, 8+ den we went back hm
jie came over n slp

next mornin went to sch fer pm&a
initially i dun wanna go de
im so worried fer moi dad
but sis asked mi to go
so i went
but i missed gems n 1lesson of pm&a
but sum pple juz dun seem to have any compassion
if i can go sch, i`ll definitely go
if its u, will u still go sch n farkin dun care fer ur loved ones?
if u really do, den im so sorry, coz i WUN!!
say wadeva u wan uh
at least im not as heartless as u
anyway, after sch i went to find them
n its so frustrating
da doc n nurse on duty yest nite din make any appt fer moi dad
n nw we have to wait n wait
wait til 4+5 den managed to do da scan
went back den awhile lata, da blood vessel specialist came
he said luckily da blood is flowin down
at tat pt of time, i felt so relieved
finally nth`s wrong
nw onli have to go thru da op
anyway, xiao gu, 3rd aunty n girl came to visit dad
had dinner alr den back sis place

sat went to find dad earli in da mornin
coz jiefu send xiaoyi to work
den shun bian went to have breakfast
after tat dad called sis n said he can be discharged le
n tat his op was rescheduled to tis comin fri
so we came back hm after tat =))

fer da time being
i`ll watch over dad n make sure tat he wun *touch wood* fall down again

n baby stayed over yest nite
to make sure i wasnt thkin so much =))
thanks baby <<3
loved!!

n dearie, thanks fer ur concern too =))
i love you so much, smoochess~

sorry guys

2008-07-06T23:38:00.005+08:00

i was too busy to update moi blog

during da 3weeks break

i was busy packing moi stuffs

shifting hse

unpackin moi stuffs

very very busy

summore mst week

which i did soooo badly

i dunno hw to face pcs also

sighhss

sorry teacher

n sth terrible happened tis week also

dad fell down n had to rush to hospital

i was sooo worried tat sth will happen

thanks baby fer sendin moi dad to hospital at tat hour

din had much rest

went to sch next day den back hm

brought dad to see chi physician

but he said he cant do anything to him

asked us to go back ttsh

so we brought dad back there again

he needs to be hospitalised

but no more available beds at ttsh

transferring to ah

n we waited fer bloody long

tat`s not da end

da hospital sent moi dad to ah W/O lettin us noe

summore he`s ALONE

wtf!!

n when we asked, they onli apologise

yea u guys shld, but i really cant believe hospital can make such mistake

very very silly mistake

n im very worried fer dad =((

stayed til nite time den back hm

went to see him again da next day

lucky no sch fer mi

he needs to do da MRI scan

but da report will onli be out on fri

we stayed til ard 9+ den we went back hm

went sch as usual on fri

but din go fer pm&a2

went to see moi dad

he can be discharged le

but da report doesnt look gd

need to go nuh fer consultation again

i thk its rather stupid also lar

i thk moi dad`s is a serious case yet they can drag da consultation til so long

i seriously dunno wth is wrong wif hospitals

i juz hope everything will be fine

he used to be such a strong n fit dad to mi

but nw, he`s totally different

he`s so skinny n weak all over

sighh

seein him lyta i also heart pain

ever since da fall 2yrs back

everything has changed alr

im really very worried n scared

i rather da one who`s ill is mi

=((

nw i can onli pray tat dad will be fine

tat his illness can be cured

alright.

i dun wanna thk so much also

cherish wad u have nw

take care pple

hmmmmm

2008-06-13T14:24:00.002+08:00

dunno wad to blog also
haha. last thur i went back sch again =((
after tat baby brought mi to sim lim to see lappys
den back to his hse
he prepared dinner fer mi =))
after dinner tv n back hm

cant rmb wad i did on fri
at nite went fer supper wif baby
after tat back moi hse to watch tv
den he left after tat

sat i thk i went ikea wif erjie, jie n hong jie
went there to get sum bathroom accessories
den back to new hse to put da stuffs n back hm

sun mornin we went to da singapore flyer =D
coz erjie gt tis smou club thingy
gt carnival n flyer fer $8 onli
haha. da carnival is those children`s kinda games
but its fun lar
coz its wif family =DD
won many useless games (at least to us)
haha. but gt da eeyores at last
i wanted da piglets, but no more alr =(((
den went to sit da singapore flyer n back hm
soooo tired =.=
after which erjie n i went to ikea AGAIN =.=
haha. den we went tm walk walk
supposed to go city area, but too tired
so we juz hang ard tamp n back to new hse

mon went out wif erjie n xj
supposed to have baby included, but he din join us last min
went to the cathay to catch sex n da city
quite a nice show
i wan da walk-in wardrobe lyk carrie =((
haha. so damn nice can
oh well, after watchin, we walked ard ps
den back hm =))
met baby after dinner at hm
stayed over his place
n he sent mi to new hse da next day to meet up wif them

mopped da floor =((
very very tiring
erjie is cinderella
hahahaha =X
back hm bathed n tv n dinner =D

wed went new hse again
its lyk a everyday routine nw. haha
baby came n passed mi da brochure
den lunch wif him n he went to work
i went back hm did nth but slp
haha. very tired
woke up, played wif ah di n wait fer erjie to come
den dinner n back hm
bathed n tv =))

went to suntec yest
to find baby
but he was so busy
so i went to ms to shop awhile =D
fer a mango tee
den to city hall to meet erjie
n we walked back to suntec again
coz her fren wanna see sth
den we walked to ms fer tea break
haha. had secret recipe
den sent her fren to da taxi stand n we walked back suntec again =.=
haha. walked fer quite sumtime den back hm
new hse i mean =.=
haha. coz jiefu gt car alr
den they drove sum stuffs to new hse
n back hm lor =))

todae woke up at 12+
hehe. jie came coz she sick
den went to hawker fer lunch
n back hm
she went to bed after takin med
n i`ve nth to do so i came to blog =))
supposed to meet cinderella, but last min cancelled
so here i am feelin so bored n nth to do =((
not in da mood to study also
thou mst is lyk in 1week time
omg. dunno hw to survive tat
haha. still have moi btt to study also
but tat`s still quite sum time lar
during aug =((
moi exam
sighh.
anyway, mom n dad is over at new hse
so no one is at hm nw to acc mi =((
i shall find sth to do =))
take care peeps

i miss miss miss many many many pple

gen`s bday

2008-06-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

happy bday moi dearest dearie =))

thur nano paper was OMG

i dunno wad to describe

juz prayin fer da best =))

yest biomaterial was okie

hopefully i din do badly

after paper, went over to gen`s hse to surprise her =D
den we chat chat til time fer her to go sch

n i went back to cont da album im giving her

spent hours doin it

haha. real tired

hope she lyks it =D

den went over to meet them at the cathay

b4 tat met jiemei at ps to get da cake

den we walked over to the cathay to meet up wif gen, pat, jeenson n mel
had astons fer dinner

den went out to talk fer awhile n headed hm

coz its kinda late when we had dinner

no plans, so head hm

gen stayed over

n we stayed til 3+ or 4 den we slp

haha. had a great time chattin wif her =))

we woke up near 12 i thk

haha. too tired

went out ard 2+ or 3

headed to vivo

caught beverly hills chihuahua

hehe. nice show

da dogs are soooo adorable

den we had dinner at superdog

n back hm after tat =))

great day spent wif moi dearie. hehe

5th dec:

da birthday girl =))

jiemeis~dearies

group pic

6th dec:

Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending

2008-06-05T01:00:00.002+08:00

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

tat`s it

2008-06-05T00:32:00.003+08:00

woke up at 8+
den went to bathe n to sch
so borin =.=
do extrusion til 1+
went fer lunch
den to kitchen to bake our muffins
finished at ard 4+ 5 lyta
went to chinatown there to find laopo
pass her back her keys den i went back hm le
reached hm at 6+ den went to slp at 7
no one at hm
mom n erjie went to ikea
dad went to buy food
i`ve no appetite to eat
so went to slp
very very tired
slept til 10+ den wake up
hehe. by den mom they all still not hm yet
went to bathe den watch tv
dunno wad time slpin
coz im not tired nw =((

guess its da end fer us alr
i noe i noe
everything is moi fault again
i can onli have u wif no other frens
or rather am i not supposed to have any frens ard mi?
is tat so?
fine. i wun say any further alr
i noe u wanted to end tis r/s all along
ur irc frens (guys or GIRLS) all are more impt den anything else
everytime u juz cant seem to get ur eyes off tat screen
if u really really willing to give up everything fer mi
i dun see y u cant juz STOP using da irc
since those online pple are BETTER den mi
fine, juz go ahead
alright? go ahead n do wadeva u thk is right
since im no longer impt in ur life
im juz a nobody
take care n have fun uh

back from chalet

2008-06-03T01:58:00.000+08:00

hihi pple
so long never update alr. hehe
i shall not recall back wad happened fer da past few weeks le
coz i dunno hw many days will i take to finish =D
i shall start from fri den =))

fri:
went to sch as usual
had pm&a2 prac
finished quite earli
so went fer breakfast
den to lib to rest
erjie came to sch to collect her notes
den suhui n i acc her to eat
jie happened to be in sch also
haha. so erjie acc mi to t15 there to meet jie
i went fer moi gems, which finished lyk within 1hr onli
supposed to go fer pm&a2`s tutorial
but i dun wanna wait fer 1hr juz fer 1hr tutorial
so i went back to sis hse to pack moi stuffs
boy came n we waited fer da rain to stop
den we made our way to tm to order cake n have dinner there
after eatin went to buy sum stuffs den headed down to chalet
reached there rest awhile den went to bathe
after bathing, we played mj wif dad n mom
hehe. played til 2-3+ den bed time

sat:
woke baby up fer work
den i went back to slp again
haha. woke up alr had breakfast
den to new hse wif mom, jie n erjie
after tat went to tamp to meet girl, aunt n andrew
den to ntuc again to shop fer stuffs
n back to da chalet
bbq n buffet =))
din really enjoyed moiself =
anyway, played mj again at nite. haha
won $2.50 onli =.=
den went to slp
quite angry lar =((

sun:
woke up n had breakfast
wait fer girl to come den mj again
haha. played til dinner time
walked to changi village to had dinner
back there to cont again
den went to bathe n baby came wif da cake
celebrate dad`s bday
hehe. after eatin cake den mj again =D
played til 12+ i thk den girl they all went back
at nite mom, baby, soon boon n i played again
slept at ard 4-5+
very very tired
den baby sent sb back n we went back chalet to slp

mon:
HAPPY BDAY DAD!!
woke up at 8+
need to check out at 0930
so no choice =((
very very tired, but still have to drag moiself up
after everything is done, we went to have breakfast
sum eggs, bread n drinks which cost dad $21
haha. but its nice lar. da eggs are big =P
after tat back hm
unpacked da stuffs n i went to slp =.=
haha. jie they all went to new hse, i stay at hm n slp =((
wanted to acc boy to sim lim, but guess i overslept
sorry!
woke up watch tv den dinner
after tat tv again
slept at 2+

tue:
woke up at 9+
received call from laopo
asked mi to go out wif her
so went to had breakfast den to new hse
coz da a/c installation is today
after tat went to laopo`s hse
den went to chinatown area first
den to sim lim
after which to bugis street which she bought many many stuffs there
haha. den to bugis
had dinner n shopped ard
i bought moi contact lens solution
n i gt alot ALOT of freebiesss~
haha. im so greedy
very very heavy =((
den back hm to take moi stuffs
n here i am at laopo`s hse =D
tmr still need to be in sch to do fyp
sooooo borin =((
alright, tat`s all pple.
gdnitess =D

i always believed tat unlike poles attract
n so do pple
but i guess im so wrong
i thot we can be different
i thot we can really accomodate wif one another
i thot we can overcome soooo many stuffs
i thot we should compromise each other
but its juz sooo WRONG!!
u seem to change
perhaps u`ll say im da one who`s changed
oh well, i dunno
i juz noe tat our r/s is gettin weaker n weaker
there is simply no trust between us u see
wadeva i do juz seems so wrong
very wrong everytime
its lyk im da one at fault most of da time
sighh

can u tell mi wad exactly has happened?
is there a third person involved?
or u simply cant be bothered wif mi anymore?
am i really tat hard to be wif?
am i really a very difficult person?
do i always make things hard fer u?
do u really really hate mi tat much?
do u still love mi?
is there any other ways to improve our r/s?
is there any things tat i can do to make u happy?
or am i asking too much from u?
etc...

there are so many unsolved ques in moi head
i really really wanna noe da ans
is tis juz da beginning or its gonna end soon?
i really dunno *sobss*

happy mother`s day

2008-05-12T00:22:00.003+08:00

thur:
no sch fer mi
nth much to do
slept til 12+ den i woke up
hehe. but stomach very cramp
went to talk to boy, n everything turns out gd =))
stayed til 9 den i went back hm
had dinner den blah blah

fri:
missed earli class, tyy de
went fer product design prac
den lunch at fc2 n gems
after gems went to town wif gen
din go fer pm&a2
hehe. trimmed eyebrows
shopped ard
bought a mango top
den back hm
had dinner n watch tv
waited fer boy to come n fetch mi to jie`s hse
b4 tat went to ms to fetch erjie also
reached hm tv den slp

sat:
had breakfast den to jie`s fren`s hse there to take car
den we set off to near moi sch tat area`s showroom
den to ubi`s showroom also
jiefu decided on honda city
so after da paperwork, we headed down to tamp ikea
had dinner den back hm
awhile lata went to meet boy
coz was supposed to go zoo wif him n frens
but family day fer mi =))
so met him fer supper
but din manage to eat
coz im still feelin so full
went there to drink n see them eat
den he sent mi back =))
reached hm wash up den slp le

sun:
went to near har par villa there to eat
korean restaurant
i dun lyk at all =X
haha. b4 leavin, i saw joanne peh
den felicia chin
n of cse moi GODDESS, FIONA XIE!!!
omg!! she`s so damn pretty n sexy lor
haha. really really very nice =D
after tat back hm
wanted to mj, but both sis not interested
so slack awhile n went to slp
haha. very tired
slept fer 2hrs den woke up
watch tv, blah blah blah
den dinner n back hm
had so much today
alright, moi report is still da same
left untouched =.=
die alr. haha
alright. its gettin late
i shall slp nw
gdnitess pple =D

oh well, i noe u`re gonna say
'why didnt u tell mi anything?'
'why did u have to hide things from mi?'
'why, why, why?'
coz i dunno wad will u tell mi if i tell u tat
i dunno. i dunno.
blame mi, scold mi, curse mi
do wadeva u wan to mi uh
sorry!

tue

2008-05-06T19:30:00.002+08:00

today was a fark up day
mornin went sch priya cancelled da lesson =.=
w/o lettin us noe
she claimed tat she emailed us
but last time i check really dun have =.=
wadeva
den we went to workshop to find mr tan
regardin da supplier thingy
den he helped us to settle
hehe. after tat breakfast at mac
den to lib n to da next lesson
was so tired lor
coz its tyy`s lesson
haha. suhui n i talk n talk lyk he`s not there
initially i wanted to go lib n finish moi report
but den gen said she`s goin out to eat wif them
den lyta i still stay in sch fer 5hrs fer wad
might as well go hm n do
when i reached hm, rest awhile
den calvin called n ask mi to acc him to CGH
coz he need to do his therapy
haha. after tat back hm
din manage to do moi report
went to slp, so tired
woke up n have dinner
moi calf suddenly very pain
tis mornin alr pain le
nw even more pain
cannot walk alr =((
haha. den watch tv n online
lazy to do moi report
sighss
tmr 8am lesson again
borin shit

u`re da one who said dun wan mi
okie fine. den i dun bother u
but den leh?
u said u`re disappointed wif mi
sighhss
wadeva ba
nth i do seems to make u happy or wad
everything is merely moi fault
4get it
take care

5th may

2008-05-05T19:13:00.006+08:00

fri:
skipped tyy`s mornin lesson
went fer prac at 9, n was late =P
after prac went to eat
after eatin gems
after gems pm&a2
back hm after tat
tabulated da prac`s ans
halfway thru den had dinner outside
wif family n peggy&andrew
had frog porridge =D
fav. hehe
also had fried oyster n sotong n stingray
not 4gettin da famous beef hor fun
haha. den jiefu bought durians hm =))
back hm watched tv n went to sis hse wif erjie they all
stayed over n slept earli

sat:
woke up in da mornin n went to see cars wif jie they all
coz jiefu wanna buy car
its lyk finally lor
haha. thk they`re gettin da new honda fit
oh well, its rather spacious behind thou
went out fer almost half day
back hm prepare dinner
den MJ!! =D
played total of 3rounds
hehe. til 3+
but i lost so much =((
at first winnin den lost =(((
den went to bathe n slp

sun:
went to have lunch
prata =D
back hm watch borin movie
den played 3-person mj
haha. after tat bathe n back hm
slept at ard 1+

mon:
went fer eic at 10
blah blah blah~
den break n product design
quite slack lar
coz teacher also slack
heh. after tat is pm&a2
hm sweet hm after tat =))
wanted to go jog wif erjie de
but tat silly goose said tis n tat
ended up never go
stayed at hm n skip
very tiring
haha. guess its betta den joggin
gotta rush moi report alr =.=
sians

i was so confused
i dunno wad to say
i dunno wad to do
all i could eva replied u was a NO
a very not firm NO
coz sth is still triggerin in moi heart n mind
but i dunno if i shld say tat to u
i dun wan tis
i wan back da previous us
but its not possible anymore
i noe im being selfish
i cant change fer u
im still very immature
i still play alot
im sorry
but i guess tis will be da easiest way fer us
thou both u n i will not be happy
but thk further
it may bring us gd uh
thk on da brighter side
im so sorry fer being so selfish
pls take lots care of urself
<33

Cassie - Is It You?

2008-05-04T22:55:00.003+08:00

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

1st may

2008-05-01T22:58:00.002+08:00

oh well, moi apologies fer no updatin recently
been kinda busy
sch juz started, nth much
juz tat mayb im more attentive in class?
haha =X
busy discussin new hse reno wif sis n parents also
well i shall not say too much
juz sth more on tis week? =))

mon:
had eic in da mornin
followed by break den mould design n pmma2
finished quite earli so went to find sis they all
went to lavender food court to have our dinner
went to paya lebar there to see da bathroom accessories
wanted to go over to laopo`s hse
but her dad came back too late
so end up never go
we went back hm
keep on checkin email n finally there`s no sch on tue =D

tue:
wanted to go out wif sum1, but ended up never
so went to vivo n find gen they all
caught da movie, harold n kumar
hahaha. damn funny
after watchin went to paya lebar
wif gen n pat
thanks to pat who helped mi to carry da heavy sink
lucky i never go alone =.=
heh. den dinner n went to da new hse
den i realised i brought da wrong key =.=!!!
so no choice, left it at aunt`s place 1st lor
den back to moi hm
packed moi bag n took cab down to gen`s hse
pat went back on his own from there
bathed den watch tv
slept at ard 1-2+ i thk

wed:
woke up at ard 7 lyta
very very tired
den went to sch
i missed priya`s tutorial
hehe. went fer da prac at 9
den moi feet bleedin =.=
very pain =((
struggled to go sch
haha. prac finished quite fast
at ard 10+ lyta finish le
went to lib to watch freaky friday wif suhui
after watchin went to moberly there to find gen
den lunch wif her n pat
after which we went lib
awhile lata we went fer our fyp ballotin alr
we`re so lucky tat no one gt da same proj as us
hehe. after sch gen came moi hse
i bathed n went back wif her
den went to town to meet up wif pat, jeenson n mel
INITIALLY our plan was to ZOUK
but ended up NEVER go
so went to town n dunno wad to do
haha. had dinner den slack ard cine
jeenson dun wanna go hm too late so he caught da train back
mel`s dad came n fetch her
gen, pat n mi went to watch forbidden kingdom
b4 there we played pool
da show not bad, quite nice. hehe
after watchin we went to play wii
haha. very tired
i played boxin wif pat til moi hands very very suan =.=
but still its fun. hehe
after tat went back hm wif gen
she stayed over at moi place
while da poor pat had to go hm himself
haha. reached hm ard 4 n slept at near 5

thur:
had breakfast den back hm
rest awhile den walk to da station wif gen
she went back hm while i went to sumwhr else
took back moi stuff den went off alr
went to find erjie n xp at ms
had sakae, n also moi 1st time seein so many red plates on da table
haha. had so much
den walk ard
went suntec also
bought donuts hm, paid by erjie
lols. had da cottage waffle den back hm, alone
coz erjie went to meet her fren
xp acc her
back hm had dinner n watch tv
bathed den online n blog
so long never blog le. haha
may not have so much time alr
have moi fyp to worry abt
sigh. also gd lar. wun have much time to thk also =))
alright. gotta slp alr. very tired
gdnitess pple =))

lalala, u`re still da same
ALWAYS on phone
im still wonderin whether those times are u really true
heh. it doesnt matter nw anyway
i`ll try, VERY HARD to forget wad has taken place over da past 2months
so do u, which u will i guess
take lots care of urself
bye!

High School Musical 2 - Gotta Go My Own Way

2008-05-01T22:49:00.003+08:00

[Gabriella]
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps gettin in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
Is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I
Gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

[Troy]
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

[Gabriella]
What about trust?

[Troy]
You know I never wanted to hurt you

[Gabriella]
What about me?

[Troy]
What am I supposed to do?

[Gabriella]
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

[Troy]
I'll miss you

[Gabriella]
So
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]
Why do you have to go?

[Gabriella]
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

[Troy]
I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now

[Troy]
I want you to stay

[Gabriella]
I gotta go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]
What about us?

[Gabriella]
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

[Troy]
I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

back again =D

2008-04-13T14:51:00.003+08:00

heh, im back again after sooooooooooooooooooo damn long =))
soooooo much things have taken place durin da past lyk 1month or so?
there`s much much laughter n joy at first
but life gets more n more meaningless fer mi nw
as fer attachment, its gd too
i gt along well wif da pple there as days pass by
but also glad tat i left tat borin place alr
too much things juz happened so suddenly
i dunno how to say either

im gonna start a brand new life of moi
leavin all da past behind
all da painful memories
no more guys, no more relationship fer nw
coz i simply trust guys no more
is everything juz purely sweet talkin?
or are they truly from ur bottom of ur heart?
are u really willing to 4get abt moi past?
juz lyk wad u said to mi? are u?
if so, y shld da reason we`re apart be tis?
i dunno. i felt loved when im wif u
but w/o u, i felt lyk im dead
everything is juz gone in a nite
i`ll try moi very best not to thk abt u
coz it hurts mi so deeply
its lyk a spear piercin thru moi heart
whenever i thot of u, moi tears juz wun listen to mi
tat`s y i have to be braver, be stronger
i muz face up to reality
wad`s gone is gone
YOU will NEVER be moi again
but still im contented tat i noe u n being wif u
even if i noe da endin will be lyk tis, i`ll still have no regrets being wif u
i`ll still choose to be wif u, knowin tat we`ll be apart 4eva
take lots care moi love

dearie, thanks fer stayin by moi side when i needed sum1 da most
be careful, i might turn into a les =D
coz i dun believe in LOVE anymore
thanks fer bringin joy in moi life when im down
i miss ya

tat`s it

2008-03-08T17:24:00.002+08:00

i wanna hold u close to mi juz so much
but sigh. nvm
bb, u noe i really gt sooo much to tell, but i really dunno hw to say
im sorry to cause u so much pain all tis while
i really love u. pls take care
i guess even if i were to die infront of u, u wun even bother anymore

ilu <33

mj

2008-03-02T17:10:00.002+08:00

so long never update alr
haha. hmm, work is okie so far
coz im basically doin da same thing everyday
so borin until i`ll fall aslp every nw n den
haha. last sun played mj overnite at baby`s hse
next day din go to work, coz was sick
so slept at his hse til evenin den he sent mi back
thur i din go to work also
coz i gt appt, baby sent mi there n there =))
he even bought da mango cake fer mi
hehe. da one on tv
its so nice lar. haha
at nite meet dearie fer dinner
finally gt da chance to meet her lor. heh
fri after work, baby sent mi hm
den i went back to take moi stuffs n went to stay over at gen`s place
after we reached her place, we played tennis wif pat
haha. very tirin
den we ordered kfc delivery
guess wad time it came
10+ near 11 den reach =.=
haha. sat went out wif nuer
yea finally can go shoppin le. haha
bought a shorts from mango, n 2tops from topshop
juz tis 3items cost mi 100+ alr =((
after tat we watched L change da world
not bad, quite nice show =))
after dinner back hm
bathed n everything n went to baby`s hse
after he came n fetch mi, he went to fetch his other frens also
mj again =DDD
tis time we played til very late
1st round we played fer 4hrs lyta
haha. den 2nd round haven even finish
played finish nan feng onli they wanna leave alr
coz very very earli le. haha
den i went to bathe n slp =D
i guess we slept at 8+
juz woke up not long ago onli, at 4+
haha. hmm, lata dunno doin wad le
dinner den back hm =))
tmr start work again
SUPER BORIN!!

i love moi baby <33

2008-02-22T20:29:00.002+08:00

moi attachment started alr, on mon
everything`s fine, juz tat da company is rather small
i thk sp`s lab is still bigger den da co
haha. serious, even issac agrees wif mi. lols
but guess wad. both of us has been asked to do ADMIN WORK!!
which is totally irrelevant from our studies okie
i am at da finance dept n him at marketin
there`s another 2guys, from sp too
but under engg sch. i wonder wad are they doin there
haha. anyway, so far so gd lor
i hardly see any locals there
da office is full of malaysians,
n da workplace is full of china pple n bangala
haha. all but mi are malaysians in moi dept
da way they speak very funny
haha. esp skype. LOL

anyway, lets not talk abt tis
sat i was back hm, feelin so bored
so decided to find sth to do
went to chat, n i found HIM back again
i`ll never regret goin back to moi sis place tat day
i juz missed those times yrs back den
of cse, i love wad im havin rite nw
tat he`s moi sweet baby =D
da sweetest one eva
i guess im da world`s most happiest girl nw =D
coz i have him, n he`s all tat i eva needed =))
i love u baby <33
*muackss*

dearie, dun blame mi fer not tellin u tis earlier
i wanted to on tue, but, u shld noe wad happened
so sorry
but u`re not 4gtten by mi too =))
i still love u. hehe
cya on next thur alright =))
take lots care <33
miss miss~
*huggs*

im back =D

2008-02-16T15:30:00.002+08:00

hehe. im okie leh
everything went smoothly =D
lucky gt dearie to acc mi
thanks thanks <33
yest i went to meet K
shopped ard fer gen`s vday present
belated presents. haha
todae nth to do =((
so came back to sis hse to use com
anyway, wun be bloggin fer very long
2months? haha
nobody to go out wif also
damn borin. sighss
i wanna go out / mj also can =((
anyone pls date mi out to kill moi boredom
haha

happy cny

2008-02-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

happy new yr pple =))
well, tis yr`s new yr still not so bad
eve of new yr, i was over at sis place
den went back to mom`s place ard evenin time
carried so many stuffs back
haha. or rather, moi clothings =D
had reunion dinner den i watched tv
at nite helped moi dad to bao angbao
hehe. den went to slp

1st day of new yr
so many relatives came
but juz tat sum1 who came soooo late
end up we reached aunt`s place so late
1st time we played blackjack over there
hehe. i lost money =((
but juz play fer fun onli so nvm =))
after tat went over to big aunt`s hse
den dinner over at moi another big aunt`s hse
haha. stayed til ard 8+ den left
went to moi 2nd aunt`s hse b4 goin back hm

2nd day of new yr
went over to moi cousin`s hse wif parents
den they went to play mj
i went to gen`s hse to bai nian
den we went out fer dinner n movie
kung fu dunk. haha. very funny show
headed back hm after tat
so lonely =((
parents play mj til 1+ den reach hm =.=
den i went to slp =))

3rd day of new yr
went over to moi gugu hse
stayed fer an hr or so onli den went out wif jie
coz every yr im alone there
very very borin =((
so i went over to ailing`s hse wif them
hehe. played mj =P
den steamboat n played wii
fer awhile onli den cont mj all da way til 4+
very very shag
lucky i won =D
stayed over at jie`s hse

tis mornin went fer breakfast
den back hm watch tv n online
jie`s frens came
den dinner at jiefu`s mom`s place
back hm rest awhile
very very tired
dunno y. haha
juz woke up not long ago
bathed den online =))

juz 4more days. sighs
im really soooo scare
really really scare =((
dunno still can see everybody anot
i juz hope things doesnt turn so bad fer mi

tmr also another one
hopefully everything`s fine =)

exams are over =D

2008-02-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

i`ve really gt no mood to study after tat incident
im goin to fail moi engg maths n popri alr
i seriously dunno hw to do man
sighss
anyway, after da paper yest
we ate in sch den headed over to moi place
gen n pat =))
we played mj =D
haven been playin fer sooooo long
i won =))
mayb tat brings mi luck
heh. had dinner wif dearie
den back moi place
watch tv den she went back alr
i cont watchin til 11
use com den bathe n slp
woke up at 11+ todae
wash up use com
goin to do hse work alr =((
poor mi. sighss
nvm i rather do today den tmr
=)) nth much alr
sum pics =))
take care peeps

dunno wad happened to blogger
if tis thingy persist
im gonna change blog again
anyway, tat`s all =))

hw cruel

2008-01-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

im left wif 2more papers to go
engg maths n popri
of which, i`ve no mood to study
im prepared to fail alr
spm was okie
qaas was okie too
there goes moi distinction
sigh. moi 7marks dunno hw to do
nth much to update also
simply no mood

sum things are juz so unpredictable
i shld have guess it when i missed it
but i juz dun wanna scare moiself
but it still happened sumhw
hw can i be so cruel
i`ve no choice
im really sorry
pls 4give mi
its juz not da right time yet
tis is really da hardest way to learn moi lesson
i hope, 2weeks lata, i wun receive another bad news
i really really hope. sigh

exams

2008-01-20T21:43:00.000+08:00

sorry fer not updatin fer so long
haha. im over at mom`s place
coz jiefu went india again
n fer very long tis time
so jie n i went back mom`s place
anyway its study week
so no need to go back sch
in fact im goin out almost everyday
fer shoppin of cse. hehe
bought hell lots of clothes =D
anyway, juz a short update
exam period nw
tmr 1st paper spm
den thur qaas
next mon engg maths
next thur last paper popri
=D after tat cny alr =DDD
but attachment after tat =((
borin. anyway, i went to cut moi hair
nw thinner, more lighter
haha. i dyed moi hair too
red colour =D
will upload pics next time
i 4gt to bring back moi cable =((
kkz nvm abt tat
i shall go rest awhile den study alr =))

gd luck to peeps in sp =))
of cse to moi dearest frens too
hehe. gd luck to mi too =D

lovess, mango

quizzes

2008-01-08T16:53:00.000+08:00

so many quizzes tis week
im faintin soon
haha. juz took colours yest
die alr =(( haha
after colours break
den spm n back jie`s hse
online n JU came n fetch mi hm
hehe. thanks. supposed to stay there
but sth happened, i came back jie`s hse again
alone =(( coz alr very late, dun wanna disturb others
so i slept alone =(( sad uh
slept very late
coz moi fren called n acc mi chat
hehe. i scare =X
woke up at 8+ todae
bathed n went sch
studied nano on train
dun understand a single bit
die alr lor
gmould 1st
tyy really changed
hahaha. at least he`s not so LL towards mi alr
anyway, gt moi attachment placement alr
haha. at changi
lyta can stay at mom`s place =))
after gmould went to eat
whole class skipped maths
hahaha. juz to study nano
i went to lib to do moi nano presentation after lunch
was late fer nano quiz
=(((( after quiz presentation
so stress lar. haha
den everyone dislyk mi =((
keep askin qns on da slides i present
after tat back jie`s hse
takin moi notes fer tmr, n back mom`s place =D

dropped by sum1`s blog juz nw
happened to hear da song say goodbye by s club 7
xiang qi hen duo wang shi
haha. really brings back alot of memories
our sec sch times, da fun we had
our grad nite, really really very memorable
but things are never gonna be da same again
everyone`s changed
anyway, tat`s really a very sad song lar =)
very very nice song too =))