so long since i last updated
was really in da mood
anyway, abt moi dad`s report
he has a sort of tumor at his upper neck
at da head of da spine
n its a muz fer op
which is scheduled on fri, 25th july
n da nite juz b4 da day erjie left fer her ship
we were lyin on our preparing to slp
den she told mi she cant slp
n dunno y we chatted abt dad
den i suddenly cant control moiself
n i cried silently
i noe erjie was weepin too
den i went to toilet to wash up
i prayed to moi ah gong n ah ma to look after moi dad
making sure tat nth will happen to him
den i went back to moi room n went to sit beside erjie
i comforted her n tat i`ll take care of dad
i can see tat she`s worried fer dad too
n tat she cant stay back to take care of him
dun worry erjie,
dad will be fine n everything shall go smoothly =))
we have to be optimistic, thou we`re often being pessimistic
fer tis time, we HAVE to thk positively uh =))
miss ya~
so we admit him to nuh on thur
n he needed to do another 2scans
tat`s to make sure IF da tumor is cancerous,
it wun spread to other parts of his body
we waited damn long fer da scan
after which we went to do da admission stuffs
n den da doc came n check on moi dad
n she said moi dad`s op has to be cancelled
i was puzzled
dunno wad happened
i went to tell moi sis
den she came n da doc told us they found sth more serious
at tat time i was so scared
she said tat particular 1 blood vessel of moi dad was unusual
its bulging out n its quite dangerous if its flowing upwards,
which is towards da heart area
if its flowin down, it can be controlled by medicine
so he had to do da CT scan
in order to find out da direction of da flow
after tat, moi sis went out
i dunno wad to do inside so i went out to find her also
after she finished talkin on da phone,
i cant help but to break down
im really really very scared n worried
i dun wan anything to happen to moi dad
den moi sis told mi nth will happen
dad will be fine
we have to be strong infront of him
we have to act happy infront of him
in order not to let him worry
hence, i wiped moi tears n went back in after coolin down
dad was havin his dinner
we stayed til after dinner, 8+ den we went back hm
jie came over n slp
next mornin went to sch fer pm&a
initially i dun wanna go de
im so worried fer moi dad
but sis asked mi to go
so i went
but i missed gems n 1lesson of pm&a
but sum pple juz dun seem to have any compassion
if i can go sch, i`ll definitely go
if its u, will u still go sch n farkin dun care fer ur loved ones?
if u really do, den im so sorry, coz i WUN!!
say wadeva u wan uh
at least im not as heartless as u
anyway, after sch i went to find them
n its so frustrating
da doc n nurse on duty yest nite din make any appt fer moi dad
n nw we have to wait n wait
wait til 4+5 den managed to do da scan
went back den awhile lata, da blood vessel specialist came
he said luckily da blood is flowin down
at tat pt of time, i felt so relieved
finally nth`s wrong
nw onli have to go thru da op
anyway, xiao gu, 3rd aunty n girl came to visit dad
had dinner alr den back sis place
sat went to find dad earli in da mornin
coz jiefu send xiaoyi to work
den shun bian went to have breakfast
after tat dad called sis n said he can be discharged le
n tat his op was rescheduled to tis comin fri
so we came back hm after tat =))
fer da time being
i`ll watch over dad n make sure tat he wun *touch wood* fall down again
n baby stayed over yest nite
to make sure i wasnt thkin so much =))
thanks baby <<3
loved!!
n dearie, thanks fer ur concern too =))
i love you so much, smoochess~
